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Not Everyone Comes Out on Their Own Terms: Matt’s Story Part 1 | Ep 21
Manage episode 488510665 series 3485969
New episodes every Thursday | Hosted by Blaine & Reed
This week, we’re sharing a story we’ve held onto for nearly a year—because it’s that important.
Matt was outed after 35 years of marriage to a woman.
His story is raw, redemptive, and brutally honest—and it cracks open a much larger conversation about shame, survival, and starting over later in life.
This isn’t just a coming out story. It’s about the cost of secrets, the long shadow of trauma, and what it really takes to rebuild your life with integrity.
🎙️ This episode is also part of our ongoing Because of Them series—where we look back at the lives and stories that made Pride possible. Some were loud. Some were quiet. All of them mattered.
⚠️ Trigger Warning: This episode includes references to childhood sexual abuse (CSA), shared with respect as part of our guest’s lived experience.
⏱️ Chapter Breakdown:
00:00 — Introduction to the Journey
02:51 — The Unexpected Outing
05:49 — The Aftermath of Being Outed
08:58 — Family Dynamics and Reactions
11:59 — Navigating the Emotional Turmoil
15:04 — Confronting the Truth
18:02 — Seeking Help and Support
20:49 — The Impact of Trauma
24:03 — Understanding Identity and Acceptance
26:56 — Finding a Path Forward
33:10 — Rationalizing Identity and Behavior
36:09 — The Complexity of Coming Out
39:12 — The Burden of Secrets
41:36 — The Impact of Therapy on Self-Discovery
45:19 — Navigating Relationships Post-Come Out
48:00 — Experiences in Treatment Facilities
53:30 — Reflections on Self-Entitlement and Guilt
56:39 — The Evolution of Connections in the LGBTQ+ Community
01:01:45 — Mental Health and Workplace Dynamics
01:03:35 — The Importance of Resources for the LGBTQ+ Community
✨ In This Episode:
- Being outed against your will
- The intersection of trauma and identity
- How therapy (and truth) begin to heal
- What it means to start over in your 60s
- The burden of secrets on family and relationships
🧠 Why It Matters:
Not everyone gets to come out on their terms.
And not every Pride story is loud, colorful, or planned.
Some are painful. Some are quiet.
But they’re all worth telling.
🎧 Listen if you’ve ever:
- Felt like you were living a double life
- Questioned how shame has shaped your story
- Needed to believe that healing is still possible
📲 Follow @coffeewithgays, subscribe, and tell us:
Who made your Pride possible?
Follow Us! The Hosts are on our linktr.ee 😉
🌐 Visit our Linktree For All the Socials
🕺 Follow us on TikTok
🎥 Subscribe to our YouTube Channel
📸 Follow us on Instagram
🐦 Follow us on Twitter
🍏 Subscribe on Apple Podcasts
🎵 Subscribe on Spotify Podcasts
❤️ Subscribe on iHeart Radio
🌍 Check Out Our Website: https://www.coffeewithgays.com/
Chapters
1. Matt's Painful Outing After 35 Years (00:00:00)
2. The Phone Theft and Its Aftermath (00:10:33)
3. Confronting the Truth with Family (00:19:12)
4. The Burden of Rationalizations and Secrets (00:32:43)
5. Finding Help Through Therapy (00:48:27)
6. Resources for Those in the Closet (01:00:33)
18 episodes
Manage episode 488510665 series 3485969
New episodes every Thursday | Hosted by Blaine & Reed
This week, we’re sharing a story we’ve held onto for nearly a year—because it’s that important.
Matt was outed after 35 years of marriage to a woman.
His story is raw, redemptive, and brutally honest—and it cracks open a much larger conversation about shame, survival, and starting over later in life.
This isn’t just a coming out story. It’s about the cost of secrets, the long shadow of trauma, and what it really takes to rebuild your life with integrity.
🎙️ This episode is also part of our ongoing Because of Them series—where we look back at the lives and stories that made Pride possible. Some were loud. Some were quiet. All of them mattered.
⚠️ Trigger Warning: This episode includes references to childhood sexual abuse (CSA), shared with respect as part of our guest’s lived experience.
⏱️ Chapter Breakdown:
00:00 — Introduction to the Journey
02:51 — The Unexpected Outing
05:49 — The Aftermath of Being Outed
08:58 — Family Dynamics and Reactions
11:59 — Navigating the Emotional Turmoil
15:04 — Confronting the Truth
18:02 — Seeking Help and Support
20:49 — The Impact of Trauma
24:03 — Understanding Identity and Acceptance
26:56 — Finding a Path Forward
33:10 — Rationalizing Identity and Behavior
36:09 — The Complexity of Coming Out
39:12 — The Burden of Secrets
41:36 — The Impact of Therapy on Self-Discovery
45:19 — Navigating Relationships Post-Come Out
48:00 — Experiences in Treatment Facilities
53:30 — Reflections on Self-Entitlement and Guilt
56:39 — The Evolution of Connections in the LGBTQ+ Community
01:01:45 — Mental Health and Workplace Dynamics
01:03:35 — The Importance of Resources for the LGBTQ+ Community
✨ In This Episode:
- Being outed against your will
- The intersection of trauma and identity
- How therapy (and truth) begin to heal
- What it means to start over in your 60s
- The burden of secrets on family and relationships
🧠 Why It Matters:
Not everyone gets to come out on their terms.
And not every Pride story is loud, colorful, or planned.
Some are painful. Some are quiet.
But they’re all worth telling.
🎧 Listen if you’ve ever:
- Felt like you were living a double life
- Questioned how shame has shaped your story
- Needed to believe that healing is still possible
📲 Follow @coffeewithgays, subscribe, and tell us:
Who made your Pride possible?
Follow Us! The Hosts are on our linktr.ee 😉
🌐 Visit our Linktree For All the Socials
🕺 Follow us on TikTok
🎥 Subscribe to our YouTube Channel
📸 Follow us on Instagram
🐦 Follow us on Twitter
🍏 Subscribe on Apple Podcasts
🎵 Subscribe on Spotify Podcasts
❤️ Subscribe on iHeart Radio
🌍 Check Out Our Website: https://www.coffeewithgays.com/
Chapters
1. Matt's Painful Outing After 35 Years (00:00:00)
2. The Phone Theft and Its Aftermath (00:10:33)
3. Confronting the Truth with Family (00:19:12)
4. The Burden of Rationalizations and Secrets (00:32:43)
5. Finding Help Through Therapy (00:48:27)
6. Resources for Those in the Closet (01:00:33)
18 episodes
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