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Content Note: Strong language, neurodivergent struggles, communication barriers

Video Summary

A raw piece that captures what it feels like to be autistic and ADHD at 71—trying to communicate through the static and distortion of a damaged system.

Plain, direct language. No hidden meanings to decode. Just the real experience of feeling like "a brilliant creative soul trapped in a damaged body and neurology."

Using the metaphor of a short-circuiting transistor radio, this piece asks the question every neurodivergent person knows: "Do you understand at all what I mean?"

Content Note: Strong language, neurodivergent struggles, communication barriers

Key Themes Explored:

* Communication barriers that autistic and ADHD people face daily

* The transistor radio metaphor for neurodivergent expression through "static and distortion"

* Feeling trapped between brilliant inner life and damaged external systems

* Seeking understanding from other neurodivergent people

* AuDHD experience (autism + ADHD) at 71 years old

* The struggle to "just be heard" through intermittent short-circuits

Who This Speaks To:

* Adults with autism, ADHD, or both (AuDHD)

* Anyone who feels misunderstood or struggles to communicate their inner experience

* People seeking authentic neurodivergent voices without academic filtering

* Those who relate to feeling like their "wiring" interferes with expression

* Readers interested in metaphor-based understanding of neurodivergent experience

Discussion Starters:

* Do you relate to the transistor radio metaphor for neurodivergent communication?

* How does it feel when your internal experience doesn't match what others see?

* What metaphors help you explain your neurodivergent experience to others?

* Have you found your "tribe" of people who understand without explanation?

Full Transcript

Well, I feel closer to the spoken word tradition than poetry. I I just ain't that fancy. This first one, I thought I'd start with uh a metaphor, something that autistics see right away, and I think it will help uh this autist.

So, this is

Dancing Close to the Edge of the Noise

# asking AUDHDists.

Bear with me a minute. I'm autistic plus ADHD.

I feel like a a brilliant creative soul as if trapped in a damaged body and neurology.

um trying to communicate with the world through an intermittently short-circuiting transistor radio playing through static and the distortion and sparking circuits to just be heard.

Do you understand at all what I mean?

# actually autistic# ADHD# really AUDHD.

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