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Live Autistic Truth: "Dancing Close to the Edge of the Noise"
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1:42👉 Subscribe… free or paid… to Substack, get a free PDF of the entire "every clock is a handgun pointed at my head" collection.👉 Support my work → Available as Amazon ebook or softcover. Exclusive hardcover edition coming soon. Content Note: Strong language, neurodivergent struggles, communication barriers Video Summary A raw piece that captures wha…
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Live Autistic Truth: "every clock is a handgun pointed at my head"
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4:04Free Resources & Purchase Links 👉 Subscribe… free or paid… to Substack, geta free PDF of the entire "every clock is a handgun pointed at my head" collection. 👉 Support my work → Available as Amazon ebook or softcover. Exclusive hardcover edition coming soon. Content Note: Strong language, mental health struggles, time anxiety Video Summary A live p…
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Someone wrote me: "These knocked me sideways... I spent so much time as an undiagnosed autistic girl, wondering if I was the alien dropped among the normies." This is "A Swirl of Flesh-Colored Fog." Living truth. Autistic style. 👉 VIDEO: A Swirl of Flesh-Colored Fog - 6:01 I can't see faces. When I try to remember someone - even my wife - I see wha…
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Autistic Family & Other Mysteries, Live Spoken Word, 8/31/25
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32:57Thanks to everyone who tuned in! Free or paid subscribers? Join me for my next live video in the app. Gonna be a Trigger Warnings kinda take on old men with their fingers on THE Button. This week… Here’s my speaking script from this live performance. Close to a transcript, but I changed a few lines on the fly… some even on purpose. Today I’m talkin…
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Live Spoken Word, "every clock is a handgun" — s05e07
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24:27👉 YouTube Video of this live spoken word performance 👉 “every clock is a handgun pointed at my head,” Amazon book & ebook Cold Open I feel like a brilliant creative soul as if… trapped in a damaged body & neurology trying to communicate with the world through an intermittently short-circuiting transistor radio playing through static & the distortio…
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Trigger Warnings 2: Not Everything's Funny: Colbert, Trump .. & Hiroshima
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12:32Cold Open I just heard the duly-elected President of these United States... Donald J. Trump... brag about dropping the atom bomb. On Hiroshima. My god. Steven Colbert? Jon Stewart...? Once, these guys were subversive... were daring. But... But with troops still in the California streets and missiles in Mid-Eastern air... Haven't comedians become na…
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Cold Open You wanna pathologize me? Knock yerself out. Faithfully counting every leaf marked "deficit"… But missing the whole damn forest we know locally as "Survival." [Doc? You Got Us All Wrong, Pt 1: Autistic Resilience] Intro You're listening to AutisticAF Out Loud. One voice. Raw. Real. Fiercely Neurodivergent. Since 1953. Season 5, Episode 5.…
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Doc, You Got Us All Wrong, Pt 2: CBT...? Never Worked for Autistic Me
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15:52Cold Open CBT…? Never worked for autistic me. So, look, we KNOW masking doesn't work. Or FEAR. Or PAIN. We’re dying from them already. That's all the words we need. [Music] Intro You're listening to AutisticAF Out Loud. One voice. Raw. Real. Fiercely Neurodivergent. Since 1953. Season 5, Episode 6. “Doc? You Got Us All Wrong, Pt 2: CBT…? Never Work…
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Doc? You Got Us All Wrong, Pt 1: Autistic Resilience
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16:12Cold Open You wanna pathologize me? Knock yerself out. Faithfully counting every leaf marked "deficit"… But missing the whole damn forest we know locally as "Survival." Intro You're listening to AutisticAF Out Loud. One voice. Raw. Real. Fiercely Neurodivergent. Since 1953. Season 5, Episode 5. “Doc? You Got Us All Wrong, Pt 1: Autistic Resilience.…
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I need to talk with you about events beyond autism today
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7:01Cold Open [into silence] Friend, I haven't done this before. Usually I talk autism & neurodiversity with you. But I'm very concerned about events unfolding this weekend... I've seen these patterns emerge before. In other countries. Authoritarian countries¹. I have no plan of action to suggest. It's happening too fast for me to process… in my slow, …
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Living Autistic in Dangerous Times: Trump Labels 1 in 4 Families “Dire Threat”
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16:03Cold Open (into silence) You love Dune? Like me? Frank Herbert is dead... wrong. Fear is NOT the mind-killer. Denial is. [Music ] Intro You're listening to AutisticAF Out Loud. One voice. Raw. Real. Fiercely Neurodivergent. Since 1953. Season 5, Episode 5. Attacks on neurodivergence, facing our fears, finding our strength. Today we're talking threa…
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Autism, Neurodiversity, 3 Poems... 3 Rando Manifestos
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15:21Cold Open I was not born to be pitied. I was born to raise Hell. Autistic style. Intro You’re listening to AutisticAF Out Loud. One voice. Raw. Real. Fiercely Neurodivergent. Since 1953. Season 5, Episode 4. Breaking mirrors, dancing at the edge of noise, raising autistic hell. Autism, Neurodiversity, 3 Poems... and 3 Rando Manifestos. Just one aut…
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Autistic Spoken Word: Every Clock Is a Handgun
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3:03Full podcast with links to available poster artwork: https://johnnyprofaneknapp.substack.com/p/podcast-every-clock-is-a-handgun-2ee Sensory-Friendly Discussion & Summary: https://notebooklm.google.com/notebook/30720fb4-dab4-48b9-873f-90ec1ac03b88/audio Transcript: Autistic Spoken Word: Every Clock Is a Handgun Pointed at My Head This spoken word on…
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Podcast: Every Clock is a Handgun in My Autistic Time
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33:22Hey! I’m Johnny Profane… back after a 6-month bout of the "shys" to launch Season 5 of AutisticAF Out Loud. Missed you guys… But I'm here now, at least for the moment... Let's do something great with that moment, shall we? This seems like the perfect occasion to talk about Time… and how it passes. A crucial topic… whether you’re autistic or ADHD, w…
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An Example of Exclusive Subscriber Content… Raw, Real, Authentic. I’m letting my one austic voice do all the talking this time. I kinda like that. AutisticAF Out Loud - One Autistic Voice. Hmm… Here’s my first thank you. My first real attempt at being live on camera. It’s an autistic thing. No mask. No cosplay. I explain after you hit the button…. …
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Actually Autistic? Whatever Doesn't Kill Your Unique Neurodivergent Ass… s4e3
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17:39Shattering Neurodivergent Stereotypes: A Raw Dialogue for Tomorrow's Generations Description: Embark on a transformative journey with Johnny Profane in this compelling episode of AutisticAF Out Loud, titled "Actually Autistic? Whatever Doesn't Kill Your Unique Neurodivergent Ass…". This conversation goes beyond dismantling societal myths and stereo…
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Autism? It's a State of Being. NOT an Identity Group, s4e2
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14:29Autistic Authenticity: Navigating Identity and Community Description: Dive into a candid conversation on AutisticAF Out Loud, where we tackle the often blurred lines between being autistic, belonging to identity groups, and maintaining personal integrity. "Autism? It's a State of Being. NOT an Identity Group" serves as a bold reminder that autism i…
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Slouching Toward Joy: My Best 6 Phases To An Actually Autistic Relief, s4e1
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16:49Embracing Autism's Raw Truths in My 70s Description: Dive deep with Johnny Profane into a journey unlike any other—a raw, unfiltered exploration of living with autism discovered later in life. This episode peels back the layers of daily life, challenges, and the unexpected joys found in the simplest moments. "Facing the reality of autism in my 70s,…
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The Night this Autistic Adult Broke Free: An Autistic A.F. Halloween Tale, s3e8
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8:03###🎙️ Unmasking at the Late Night Picture Show: One Autistic's Reckoning * One night that demolished a lifetime of conformity * One bodacious shift... from meditation cult to liberated living * One tale of indulgence, rebellion & the embrace of an #autistic identity 👉 Click to witness the transformative night. ###👂 Tune In to Discover: * Hear the v…
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Homeless & Autistic...? Pt 2 - Theo Schools Me in Actually Autistic Joy s3e7
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14:40🎙️ Episode Highlights: The Myth of "You Can Do Anything": An Autistic Lens (Must-listen for adult autistics) The Hidden Costs of Conventional Education on Autistic Lives (Essential for educators) Curious? Keep listening. 👂 Listen and Learn: Step into the intricate world of autistic experiences, as Johnny Profane and Theo dissect the failures and bi…
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Homeless & Autistic? Theo Taught Me Actually Autistic Joy in School s3E6
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16:18🎙️ Inside This Episode: • The Hidden World of Theo, a Homeless Autistic... Scholar • Privilege vs. Failure: An Autistic Perspective • The Raw Essence of Autistic Joy ❓Curious? Keep listening to uncover these hidden gems. 🌈 Why You Need to Listen: Step into a realm where societal norms crumble, flashing a spotlight on the true meaning of autistic jo…
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This Autistic’s Fantasy: So, He Asks about My History… What I told My Doctor, s3e5
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13:00Perfectionism ain’t working for me… maybe not for Autistic AF dot you, either. So here’s something, shall we say, a little “rawer” than my usual /rant… Trascript: https://autisticaf.me/2023/09/29/this-autistics-fantasy-so-he-asks-about-my-history-what-i-told-my-doctor/ #AutisticAF Out Loud Podcast Listen & Subscribe: Apple https://neon.ly/mDd3e Spo…
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“Calm Down!” Why is this the WORST Advice You Can Give an Autistic Person?”
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4:59Ever been told to ‘calm down’? How’d it feel? Well, this autistic feels like exploding! :https://autisticaf.me/2023/08/26/calm-down-why-is-this-the-worst-advice-you-can-give-an-autistic-person/ #AutisticAF Out Loud Podcast Listen & Subscribe: Apple https://neon.ly/mDd3e Spotify https://neon.ly/p1Vay Audible https://neon.ly/vkXa1 Stitcher https://ne…
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"Neurodivergent Kiss: Autistic Fairytale... Or Fabulous Marriage?"
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6:25Folks ask about my #neurodivergent marriage. Umm… over and over. Like… “Is that even possible?” Gotta story for ya… Transcript: https://autisticaf.me/2023/08/18/neurodivergent-kiss-autistic-fairytale-or-fabulous-marriage/ #AutisticAF Out Loud Podcast Listen & Subscribe: Apple https://neon.ly/mDd3e Spotify https://neon.ly/p1Vay Audible https://neon.…
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Authentic Autistic Life: 4 Short Stories Fearless, Joyful and Chaotic, s3e2
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23:47Season 3's mission? To boldly explore living authentically autistic... out loud. That first story? Carving out a safe space to be our true autistic selves... a big part of that quest. Support the show --- Send in a voice message: https://podcasters.spotify.com/pod/show/autisticaf/message This is a public episode. If you'd like to discuss this with …
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