What if your best friend pulled the trigger right in front of you and you couldn’t stop it? This isn’t a movie scene. It’s the moment that changed everything for Carlos Vasquez.

In this raw and unforgettable episode, I sit down with Peter Meyerhoff and Carlos Vasquez, two men who once ran California’s most dangerous prison yards as shot callers. What begins as a story of broken homes and lost fathers spirals into gang life, violence, and survival inside maximum-security prisons. Carlos recounts the moment his best friend played Russian roulette and died before his eyes, a trauma that sent him down a path of armed robberies, betrayal, and decades behind bars.

Inside, Carlos became a leader in a world ruled by fear and strategy, not strength. Peter opens up about his own time in the system, where loyalty was an illusion and every friendship could turn deadly. Together, they reveal what prison life really demands and how both men found redemption through truth, forgiveness, and faith after years of darkness.

Watch this episode to witness one of the most gripping redemption stories ever told and to see how even in the darkest places, purpose can be reborn.

Key Moments:

0:00 The Russian Roulette That Changed Everything

1:25 Entering Maximum Security Prison at 19

5:16 Running Away at 13 and Finding the Streets

8:15 The Deadly Game That Ended Everything

13:31 The Lie of Loyalty in the Streets

17:23 The Setup That Sent Me to Prison

20:35 Realising Loyalty Doesn’t Exist Here

23:27 How Violence Became My Identity

27:45 Why I Was Scared to Become a Father

31:22 Ten Years of Violence to Earn Respect

34:13 Becoming a Monster to Live

39:48 I Stopped Thinking About Freedom

43:47 Trust No One Behind Bars

46:54 Inside the Prison Drug Trade

50:21 When Guards Become Gangsters

53:00 The System That Fuels Violence

56:02 Prison Hustle vs Corporate Life

1:01:09 When Ego Finally Breaks

1:05:50 Rebuilding Purpose From the Ashes

1:10:20 How Pain Turned Into My Mission

1:15:25 Why Forgiveness Sets You Free

1:18:09 The Prison Lessons That Apply to Life

1:21:03 When Power Becomes Poison

1:24:14 The Turning Point That Saved Me

1:27:00 Relearning What Loyalty Really Means

1:33:45 How to Rebuild a Life After Prison

1:36:27 Peter’s First Days of Freedom

1:39:05 The Shock of Returning to the Real World

1:44:28 What Prison Taught About Humanity

1:47:11 Why Most Men Never Truly Heal

1:52:27 From Violence to Vulnerability

Guests Info:

IG: @peter_meyerhoff

Website: https://petermeyerhoff.com/

IG: @‌carlosvasquezofficial

Website: https://carlosvasquezofficial.com/