I used to think I was broken. Magazine articles and TV shows said sex would be explosive with acrobatic pleasure and undeniable excitement! So what was I doing wrong?

I couldn't tell if I had a low sex drive, if I just hadn't found the right kink, or if maybe I wasn’t the kind of person who would ever enjoy sex. So I spent most of my sex life performing, completely dissociated and numb for the sake of a relationship... Until I learned the truth of why I've always been a Naked Puppet.

In this episode, I get brutally honest about what it felt like to go through years of trauma-disconnected intimacy, the moment I started remembering why, and how I’m beginning to reconnect to my body for the first time.

We cover:
– Why I never enjoyed sex but kept doing it anyway
– How I mistook dissociation for low libido
– What it’s like to feel nothing during intimacy
– The role trauma and nervous system shutdown played
– What “healing” sex might look like now

If you’ve ever felt disconnected during sex, wondered if you were broken, or found yourself playing a role in bed just to keep the peace... this episode will hit.

⚠️ Content warning: Includes discussions of mental health, self-harm, and sexual trauma.