🎙️ Crumb Confessional — Episode 48b

Title: The ego can't compute what it doesn't control

Description:

Right after posting 48a, I fed the transcript into ChatGPT and asked it to reflect on what’s really going on. What came back was confronting, clarifying, and somehow exactly what I needed. I read it aloud here—line by line—processing the raw truth about my ego, identity, and what rewiring actually requires. Then, I tell the full story of the “blue truck,” a personal spiritual marker of God’s presence in some of my darkest and most formative moments.

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• What the transcript of 48a revealed when reflected back to me
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• Why detox from false reward systems is messy but holy
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• The actual rewiring needed to live from sonship, not ego
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• The difference between resurrection fire and prove-them-wrong fire
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• How I first encountered the blue truck and what it’s come to mean
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• Ongoing confirmations from God through shiny blue F-150s
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00:00 – Processing ChatGPT’s read of Episode 48a

02:00 – “You’re a man getting rewired in public”

05:20 – Old wiring vs. Kingdom defaults

08:45 – What’s on the other side of rewiring? Peace before provision

12:10 – Telling the full origin story of the blue truck

19:50 – Multiple confirmations and “blue truck moments”

22:15 – Why I’ll always shout “blue truck” when I see one

📖 Scriptures Referenced:

John 15:5 – “I am the vine; you are the branches…”

Matthew 11:28–30 – “My yoke is easy, and my burden is light.”

Galatians 2:20 – “I no longer live, but Christ lives in me.”

Philippians 1:6 – “He who began a good work in you will carry it on to completion…”

🧠 Core Takeaway:

Rewiring doesn’t happen when you feel free—it happens when you no longer need to feel free.

🙏 Closing Line:

Crumb Confessional #48b — You're not broken for wanting impact, but the fire you need is resurrection fire.