For years, I kept quiet — haunted by the burdens of who I used to be. The mistakes I made, the things I did... I no longer trusted myself. I couldn’t even look at me.
I actually planned to stay mad at myself for the rest of my life because it felt safe — and honestly, the world justified it.

We often praise women through the lens of feminism, telling them to do what feels right for them and their bodies. But what if what we choose leaves us scarred and ashamed, far from recovery?

This conversation is about how God saved me — from the world’s approval, from shame, and ultimately from myself.
I was burdened by decisions I tried to numb with drinking, smoking, partying, and pornography. But when you pick up your cross and follow Christ, you are renewed in Him.

The challenge, though, is learning to truly believe that. Because even after redemption, you might still wrestle with your past.
So I ask you—does the pain stop at the decision, or does it still carry out like a process, month after month, year after year?

This episode is raw, honest, and necessary. It’s for every woman who’s ever been haunted by her past but ready to walk into grace and freedom

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Episode Chapters:

00:00 Introduction and Technical Difficulties
00:53 The Importance of Forgiveness
07:09 Cultural Perspectives on Forgiveness
09:46 Finding Strength in Forgiveness
12:50 Personal Stories of Forgiveness
16:26 Reflections on Past Choices
19:39 The Impact of Abortion on Forgiveness
28:36 Struggles with Parenthood Decisions
29:29 Breaking the Cycle: Defying Statistics
31:18 The Weight of Regret: Reflections on Choices
33:46 Pregnancy Struggles: The Reality of Hyperemesis Gravidarum
38:17 Facing Death: The Emotional Toll of Decisions
41:54 Forgiveness and Healing: A Journey to Self-Acceptance
47:02 Finding Peace: The Burden of Guilt and Shame
52:58 The Power of Forgiveness: Breaking Free from Temptation
57:11 Generational Patterns: Understanding Our Decisions
Hyperemesis Gravidarum - severe or prolonged vomiting.

persistent severe vomiting leading to weight loss and dehydration, as a condition occurring during pregnancy.

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