Best SMART E MC Podcasts (2025)

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PART ONE | then we'll get back to dropping those seeds. 15:27

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Send us a text This is the intro? This is the sum of everything when it comes to suicide. Don't die is the short version. The long version is asking, "Do these doctors or people in positions of power actually prefer you/the one causing a raucous to simply die?" I've been in shock, but now I'm out of it & can finally hear my own voice. Support the s…

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#12. Meaning, ahead of number 11 & also GOAL-SETTING & that PT who would make an easy goal & then achieve it & do nothing. 11:22

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Send us a text Everything is about Education! GET RID OF ALL 11s and talk about tech [bros]. Oh no! Just googled this : Yes, Veterans Day is always observed on November 11, regardless of the day of the week it falls on. The date marks the end of World War I, as the armistice was signed at the eleventh hour of the eleventh day of the eleventh month …

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SEED THREE is 3 minutes long. That is universe/God or modern day www (Wild Wild West) saying STAY HERE or don't die. 3:00

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Send us a text I said "don't die" to self about 10,000,000x. That's what's needed. 10 MIL people to care. Then yes, I'm done, That' the highest number I can count to. Each 0 is a black hole and 6 in total. That's enough so INTENSITY SCALE based on 0-6, not 1-10. 0 = nothing. I feel no pain 1 = I have back/spine pain 2 = sleeping is a problem (ident…

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Send us a text I heard panini---yum---maybe I'm hungry. TWO TYPES ALWAYS | meat & cheese / vegetarian . Support the showBy SMART E MC

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SEED TWO was Food but lost it. SEED THREE INTRO (posted below, but no numbers, no title) | "when doing something new, it'll get worse than better, I promise." 0:07

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Send us a text These parents WOULD UPDATE me when there was success since their lives re: kids' tantrums, behaviors and refusal to do homework got better by a reduction of these behaviors. ONE-ON-ONE with the entire family and yet only SOME KIDS. Why Education is Everyone, not just some. Support the show…

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SEED ONE | liberté, égalité, fraternité 5:21

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Send us a text Finally, we can begin. I'm multi-tasking with multiple meetings, phone calls & conversations at-the-same-time. Standard was K-4, students, teachers, paras & parents & if I can get into the office/classroom today, that's 3x. That's 3 stages in life. There's our templates. 1-2-3. Originally a waltz since I didn't see it, I heard it. Th…

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INTRO to SEED DROPPING & how to organize this shIT. the "t" sound is left out at the end. First dropped letter sounds: m, p, t, c/k/ck | every podcast will have a YOUtube link since it's all about you ... 11:00

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Send us a text Then there's a double t or tt, you'll see in this videos since that's when I heard tt. I said it & saw it & what I'm trying to show about how a traumatic brain injury works. Support the showBy SMART E MC

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EXPRESSIVE or NON0-EXPRESSIVE | TBI | been reliving a memory for past 2-3 days. 10:05

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Send us a text Must go back to the origin & that's the GROUP of people that only knew before my friends even, but I did let them know, I need time to recover. I'll be gone for awhile, but as soon as I can, I'll be in touch. I had a health crisis. That's a boundary---not ready to share---and then I just followed through with what I said. Support the…

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TBI & why I've learned, don't wait. 10:05

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Send us a text If you have an icky feeling in-the-moment, deal with it since it will not go away until you must confront it & then, I'll do so with the NEXT TIME it triggers thinking that's the adrenaline needed TO MOVE so I change FREEZE to FIGHT (fight with writing). That's the template I've created & have been doing. Support the show…

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Well, I heard it, finally. 8:47

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"That's what I sound like?" 3:37

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Send us a text TEACHER VOICE is me, now STAY HERE. Support the showBy SMART E MC

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The Road Map. 2:27

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Send us a text I knew I had to get to a certain level with cognition so that I wouldn't be "duped" again by people who so easily took advantage using distractions when I finally asked them to explain something, or questions like, "do you know what optics is?" & me saying no & then silence. That moment is how the body/sensory relives these moments c…

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IN THE OFFICE because of the one act of kindness. 0:57

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RED | I completely redid my bathroom (the worst first) & made it red & disability friendly. No threshold shower & touch-free 15:47

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Send us a text NOW, LET'S MOVE ON TO TOUCH. 3 great conversations today (One with a doc. One with a bank. One with a friend) Support the showBy SMART E MC

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the word is OTHER. 11:57

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Send us a text Here's the link to find the song. What were the original audio HAPPY triggers, not ptsd audio tigers

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IDENTIFY ROADBLOCKS to WRITING | editing! 9:04

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Send us a text Face that Fear. Pen[is] to Paper & Touch. Write on paper (physical) & start editing (cognitively) it. Let's GO! Said it. It's done. COMPOSITION 6 & the use of the word "best friend" in 6 different ways. Support the showBy SMART E MC

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Send us a text I decided not to patch in the in-the-moment catching of IT (describe IT/suicide) I FROZE, but a friend was present & recorded it & then we caught it---the suicide. Then I got it out. In a moment of ptsd uprising... you'll body will feel different & it's acute so FAST, no SLOW TRANSITION (now this is important) I wrote. A review. It g…

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TWO 10 minute voice memos re: customer service & a TWITTER UPDATE 12:10

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Send us a text I do believe I'm ready to find that YouTube with "no no no no" & write that scene of when I pulled over during a temper tantrum over insurance & the first words of their ANXIETY. Support the showBy SMART E MC

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COMMUNICATION IS A TWO-WAY STREET 4:12

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Send us a text WHO ARE THE ONES WHO WANT TO TALK? WHO AVOIDS THE QUESTION? All you need to know now is DO THEY GET IT? Someone who doesn't & wants to know. How do they behave? Someone who doesn't & doesn't want to know. How do they behave? Someone who does & pretends they don't. How do they behave? Someone who does & has no questions. How do they b…

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THEME : superheroes 1:16

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Send us a text Anyone can be one! How cool is that idea. Support the showBy SMART E MC

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TRIGGER WARNING In conclusion : it's working 1:29

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Send us a text When you "get it out" (suicide) you're giving yourself TIME to regroup. This is a war. No wonder the themes of ptsd and head trauma is the same in politics (use of fear, manipulation, nepotism & being duh--pretending to not get it when you 100% do! How to trigger people politicians) Self-awareness & death Support the show…

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In conclusion, it works. 4:06

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Send us a text 3 notes with suicide. Staying with "it" until you realize, "ok, this is what my body wants so for now, let's play that game." TRUSTING you will not because there's only one way I would do it---that's why, when one person knows. It's a bit mental when you start to think, omg, they're trying to ____ __. Support the show…

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start with SPEECH 0:19

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Send us a text Talk slower. Talk like there's a period (stabby point) at the end of each word. Support the showBy SMART E MC

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TRIGGER WARNING | suicide & feedback on strategy (validation) 27:55

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Send us a text The adrenaline is going away... I didn't have numbers secured so "two" as to, too & part of the infinitive like "to run. To hide," but also because in YEAR TWO, we discussed validation & this person never brought it up again, but realization they were using every word/phrase/mantra/intellectual way to understand self in these emotion…

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This could literally go on forever, but I think we're here finally | suicide 12:25

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Send us a text We're going to plan for it. It's validating it knowing I could never follow through since FAITH stops me. There's a purpose for everything---even this. I'll be writing "Dating, Mating & Relating," "Conversations with The Father," "Lessons, Lessons & Confessions," & the first lesson plans will be (a) hydrotherapy (b) fine motor (c) gr…

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Validating suicide so it doesn't happen to get to YEAR TWO | need for validation & grooming (learned this word in 2018. If I was aware before, could I have stopped it from settling in?) 14:36

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Send us a text This is definitely one of those worst first moments so next time I hear it, just write it. The worst that can happen is that you can read it & immediately realize just how awful violence is that makes something so simple as "writing what you hear" (note-taking) impossible because the sensory would be too much? I wrote out what I am c…

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PART ONE | recorded second 1:12

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Send us a text A signature of consent to share the experience that happened... To end ptsd when the right people are finally listening, say it all. It'll be on YouTube. UNLISTED until I can list it. Support the showBy SMART E MC

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Untitled Episode 0:35

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Send us a text NOPE Support the showBy SMART E MC

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Send us a text WEDDING OF THE CENTURY! FINALLY, how they think. It's fine, but it was, according to darkest day, "disgusting!" That "d" sound really stuck--reverberations that increased chronic pain--so flip it. Support the showBy SMART E MC

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Send us a text The explanation for special ed & a change in behavior from the TEACHERS. They had to input grades weekly & a weekly reminder by the principal in the principal meetings. One admin had those. One started out with those & then stopped. Similar to... Support the showBy SMART E MC

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example of fairly clear scheduling request. 0:38

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Send us a text same time tomorrow? same place/same time in homeless advocacy. Support the showBy SMART E MC

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Untitled Episode 0:25

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Send us a text Almost lost D due to a [disgusting] wedding of the century! their words. Support the showBy SMART E MC

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can we begIN? 4:08

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Send us a text We've begun. Support the showBy SMART E MC

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GROK | first time | X 17:50

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Send us a text I hear it. I read FAST. Support the showBy SMART E MC

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looking at photos to purposely retriever or do what they did but this time with consent. Ok, I'm getting this methodology 0:47

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Send us a text No idea what this photo was, but just be direct. Pay attention or if you have ptsd, you'll be in survival mode & what you see/hear will be on replay until it's addressed/figured out/dealt with because you get ONE CHANCE to find out the truth. Trust what people say/do & how much they "get it." Support the show…

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repeat #s 0:52

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Send us a text Just say words with numbers in it. I said a lot with the word "dead"line validating suicide. OK. Got it. I don't really talk so I made myself talk as a way to "fight back" & stay grounded so let's use a template. THE OFFICE/CLASSROOM. Support the showBy SMART E MC

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allergies to cats & CLEANING! 0:12

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Send us a text listening to voice memos > 1 minute Will build up to longer ones. Let's start here. Support the showBy SMART E MC

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Send us a text If it says UNTITLED EPISODE, if I were to write something in there, there's no ability to play this file. Crying every day after... Under duress & getting yelled at for crying daily? This is getting super mental, so let's stop that behavior, since one day, you never know---the s/v might just start talking. After trauma, learned in ad…

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Send us a text To think, this was soooo private since related to "adoption stories," & people I've met along the way with food dynamics that I addressed with simply 3 rules of eating. a) eat when hungry b) stop when full c) change the palate to eat healthier since biological cravings to salt, sugar, fat make sense. After injury, I would crave these…

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Said it again | "significant" or "significance" & first lesson plan (LP) will be HYDROTHERAPY 17:05

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Send us a text What helps. What harms. Once I share, couldn't anyone just pretend? Why the boundary is created because if you're IN, you're IN & if you're not, I don't know how to get IN. IN what? That trust thing. Once it's gone, I don't think there's a way to re-establish it since in the past, just automatic acceptance. Life is too short, but now…

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iReady to FLIP TRAUMA 18:26

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Send us a text ...people that use mental health as a shield knowing most of us will accept & NOT QUESTION. That's it. Let's do the opposite & question them. Don't do what they do & I like to say, "I do not reinforce the behaviors I DO NOT LIKE." Support the showBy SMART E MC

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Send us a text seCUREd origin since didn't have PAST TENSE VERBS or "d" sound | they're disgusting, ridiculous and cpD. That guy. Here's the ORIGIN. It's all MUSIC and why, no way, will I lose music. https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=YolAtBJU_Ng&list=RDYolAtBJU_Ng&index=2 1, 1, 1, 2, 2... for days. Math every day and it started with dates that became…

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13m04s of NOTES (in pic) | 90% of curriculum since was aware when speaking; these words on REPLAY (not theirs) 3:29

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Send us a text Containing all the things they do to you & those first sentences to just write out. As you hear it. Verbatim. Also reminder to...forgot. When every day is a new day. Support the showBy SMART E MC

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This contains all the best parts of ADVOCACY 11:36

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Send us a text I CARE ABOUT YOU! Written at 4:38 AM. Too early, but 4 AM clockwork speaking to a couple who really pulled a fast one on LOVE, but you know what, without them, I would've never gotten it. What people think about each other & the words, "let's do it differently." Support the showBy SMART E MC

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MOVIES | are they getting what's going on? JUST ASK 0:11

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Send us a text The initial realization was 2 seasons in & then realized that guy is a ghost! Should've explained that so now we explain and ask, who's the main character? Male or Female is stuck? Old or Young? Keep it simple. Then with 40 minutes to go, "hey, how do you think it's going to end?" Will they survive? & HOW. Let's move away from WHY (n…

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COVER ART is in BLUE NOTEBOOK 1:52

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Send us a text I'm remembering things! While talking, thinking, "that'd be a great cover art to this since when I said it, I saw it." Found recently since practicing turning the pages and why not notebooks now that TOUCH is back. Not reverberating & so was 1, 2, 3...over & over (a waltz), but add 4. 1, 2, 3, 4. STOP. That's case study. Longitudinal…

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This is THE END. 12:00

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Send us a text The focus is on getting IT done. What is IT when IT is no longer indescribable trauma since it's easy to describe now meaning all the past memories disappear & I can sit with the adrenaline that, quite frankly, isn't there? Sharing a philosophy that I'm on the verge of losing since I'm no longer, for the first time, living with the p…

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Worst first? How do you know the worst? Just count. "You get dizzy." Now think, is this audio or visual? 2:11

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Send us a text It may seem simple, but everything is step-by-step and slooooooooower. I know I lost a lot of skills since to get back the concept to life, had to reTHINK, what do plants needs? SUN, AIR & ____. A: water Then ask, how did I lose that? I lost it from a trio of people who were ok with the neglect & thus abuse of a child with severe/pro…