I think I know how to tell this story with the objective being TO CHANGE POLICIES. First, recover as soon as you can hear your own thinking connecting to previous thoughts so it's not just a single thought it's NEW INFO (What You Just Learned!) connecting to a priori. All the previous are writing samples created by adrenaline created by ptsd. -----------------------------------------------moved on------------------------------------------------- Today is March 1, 2024 (3:59 CT) & I am writin ...
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I've said this to SO MANY OF MY FRIENDS & I brought it up repeatedly to give them an opportunity/classroom to be DIFFERENT
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1:18Send us a text "My voice over theirs" theirs being many places in Chicago like Chicago School Board, NWMH/Advocate Aurora, Parks District (CPD) & THE Police (CPD). It's a specific police station. Then, voices being my friends asking me Qs and our conversations until they totally got it pretending they didn't & WHY would anyone want to do that? Let'…
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Send us a text I mentioned my Italian Identity every time I saw "some" people because of the way they stereotyped ASIAN. The ruder they were the continuation of trying to establish a "classroom" I was. Now, define CLASSROOM. A place to make mistakes in knowing with TBI, I'll forget it, but just leave me with a non-triggered (no ptsd) & reliable (ma…
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Send us a text The last word was "find." That's it. All that pre-writing for one word?! It's worth it. LITERACY (intra- and interpersonal skills re: words, books, research & "quiet/downtime time) Support the showBy SMART E MC
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PART TWO first (?) | a little confused, but the point is ADVOCACY 101 + remembering the organizational "notes"
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FULL CIRLCE | explained it verbally 1x. In-the-moment :) & that's why one day, you'll HEAR YOUR VOICE*
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6:03Send us a text *it's the same. Helping others is simply what to do [if you have the capacity]. For this project, I simply do not have the capacity. Support the showBy SMART E MC
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Not knowing how to COMBAT ABUSE OF POWER is mental
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4:23Send us a text "The psychological decline..." VALIDATE | photograph of B&W purse will be uploaded later (keep the thought) Support the showBy SMART E MC
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Send us a text This is get it out, but it's also the repetition of organizational strategies that I knew would be what I would hear again because TRUST that your thoughts are not just good ones, but the very thing to guide you to what needs to be organized [& sometimes, how to do it]. & the person who will be given the 2 cards while securing the nu…
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REINFORCEMENT 100% of the time. These women who had to talk to me about my body...
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1:43Send us a text ...and also, reported s/a too. Support the showBy SMART E MC
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seed for V or VICTORY. The origin being Vietnam.
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8:23Send us a text FIRST GOAL | FLIP TRAUMA 100% of the time. So every time it pops up, just flip it. Support the showBy SMART E MC
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the FINAL PROGRESS MONITORING DATE IS this one | time-stamped by Buzzsprout
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16:45Send us a text "numbers" SECURED days-of-the-week SECURED time MOSTLY SECURED (timepiece ~August 2024 in Detroit*) phone calls SECURED voicemails NOT SECURED texting MOSTLY SECURED (dependent on multiple factors) money SECURED (connected to 5/3 Bank | located North & Clybourn branch, Chicago, IL, USA) scheduling SECURED & most importantly (1) ANTIC…
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THE END. When you get that word change so no more VOICE, NOISE, CHOICE, DUBOIS. just TALK
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2:48Send us a text Break the cycles of their abUSE. Know when to "tap" it out---that red dot or square in a circle that I've stared at the reduce vertigo for years so acknowledge the strategy, the time spent with, the help it's done, the moments where I've had to explain or never explain (instead called names or had assumptions---really into tech!---si…
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Send us a text Since everything is in-the-moment, you don't know what the purpose is, so if you can hear self, it's simply easier. Also, I just learned the word TALK so use it & I guess I did. Why aren't they responding? They don't have an answer and all the strategies they then use. There it is | THE BIGGEST TRIGGER OF ALL. TECH since I'm in 2009 …
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Send us a text EPISODE TITLE | Consciously (a "conscious coma") with Consent making a list. Anticipate anticipation & dread
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FIRST CHARITY | veterans | find a veteran/expert in their field?
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3:46Send us a text TV & not ptsd triggering from education, generally. ACP, specifically. Then broader "community" (they changed the definition & why now, offended) parents in CPS are scariest, so again, be around them to end "that" ptsd. Support the showBy SMART E MC
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Send us a text Being very clear what one means is the first assessment. Are you clear? Is the person capable of ASSESSING THEIR OWN UNDERSTANDING to have a dialogue until complete understanding. Basically, being able to explain what someone else is saying/meaning to a degree all parties are confident the message was received exactly as it should be…
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HEARD SELF | Correction, future tense (Will*) and capitalized since it's a name FIRST, then a future tense
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6:10Send us a text The next 3-4 posts will be the indicator of non-linear, but also rejigging my brain to think differently to create those wrinkles that increase the surface area and make ya learn faster! The fuel for a Rocket Ghetto Blaster be neon hyper lime green. Next recipes will contain LIME to remove this now planning the seed for FOOD! Support…
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Send us a text DIRECTIONS : Insert any word that means "FIRE/DESIRE" But it's over. This fight. Posted it. Said, "wrote it." No, "write!" In instagram, IG, an account with my name. I declare today everything stops by reframing their shame. So begin it, now begun. Those dum dums be done. Ask, "Where does that _____ come from?" & "How to inspire so f…
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WE WROTE THE MORAL CODE down (then the bro code)
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19:21Send us a text Is Vegas. Worst First right? (6) "NO NO NO NO" to get to "a.s" (4) Sessions with DM... (3) get a third-party since they will make up a new narrative fo' sho'. "now I hear...JUST NOISE." (& right head pain SO* movie neck around *SO is a person who so badly wanted to be a "friend" in order to ____________. (you fill it in with your per…
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REFLECTION | automatic/instant & reminds me, this is going to be easy without PTSD. Thank God!
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GOAL | get into QUIET OFFICE. Always a need for some background noise once was able to stop talking that helps to diminish vertigo/head pain (~APRIL 2025)
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Send us a text They taught Chinese language since parents wanted their kids exempt & ADD ENGLISH or WRITING or SPECIAL ED. It was clear. You'd get MORE SPECIAL ED, but also, you do have to do the work so getting out of class isn't a good idea. It's field trips. It's socialization and culture. It's so different! You never know what a child is intere…
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GOAL : completed (all of them at same time to create that EQUAL IMPACT or LEARNING!)
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5:17Send us a text Thanks Friend. I don't use that word lightly. Support the showBy SMART E MC
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10 is/was "wake up & do this all over again" or the AM/PM mantra to keep teaching...
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4:20Send us a text ...you can make a different to the most at-risk/vulnerable populations and that was the HOPE. It's hopeless when you see THEIR STRATEGIES. A public school is like a mini-society so the MOVEMENT is zoom in/zoom out and the idea is compare/contrast (ahead of World One because ptsd is now over. World One is/was Bb or this woman connecte…
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Send us a text Also, TV helped. What's the origin? gf in Chicago & worst first = artichoke & the conversation that made me realize. I would've done things differently so write it how you would have done it [better] & that's how we rewrite that past & make THE BEST STRATEGIES stick. Support the showBy SMART E MC
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ONTO the STRATEGIES, but not all here. HERE Is the organizational plan.
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32:07Send us a text 9 compositions to contain 100+ triggers. First chapter has the worst first. All created by everything I've learned, but more importantly, my notes I kept during this time and include 23+ accounts in 4-5 websites. These numbers are just strategies. AIR JORDAN and 4/5 (date of the assault that got me real good) and "The Wedding of the …
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Send us a text Repeated it to put away "anxiety sobriety" in her repetition which is a behavior in multiples spaces & places. Let's just say, when you see/hear the behavior & "transport" back to that, it's significant. Support the showBy SMART E MC
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Send us a text Altogether. Closed-captions on. Rewinding. TWO SPEAKERS in two different rooms ON (if I have a feeling of getting frozen, can just get up and move toward that sound, "picking up" the plot there." Still, no adrenaline. Support the showBy SMART E MC
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Send us a text Still can't be 100% hopeful knowing that the good stuff hurts, too, but what if it's finally over. Repeat that over & over and when it really is, there is something incredible that happens. You CATCH all the disconnects, disharmony, discord or their noise. It doesn't make sense. Support the show…
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Send us a text "Never talks to me." Let me model that they talk to me. Spontaneous conversation. Twice & went into shock a bit. The types of triggers (a, v, a/v and tactile meaning a/v+t) "What's wrong with him?" (I answered it) Just like, "what are your triggers?" (round 1. A wrote the asker a letter) Support the show…
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RAPID SPEECH was the adrenaline & the conversations I had with people about this. NO RESPONSE.
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Finally. I GOT THERE & didn't have to share every single thing. FOR A PURPOSE.
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5:37Send us a text To now focus on THESE NOTES & just listen for POETRY already caught in video to put away that icky non-consent threats & "life ruined" motivation, but it can't work when ALREADY LOVE LIFE & KNOW, it's SHORT. Take care of each other! This is a love story. They, abusers (faking love. Phony baloney) Those that use the words to indicate …
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Best & the Worst [companies]. Beginning today & "What's advocacy?" It's not attaching to a cause. It's getting all the FACTS & getting those FACTS to anyone who is going through a "first time" so they ...
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11:17Send us a text Thanks to WINTRUST No thanks to CITIBANK or "shittibank" due to their behaviors that connect to lots of people I've found to avoid, but also the "insane greed" (greed that's not necessary) and since it's two managers, not just one, I wonder if this is a philosophy of the company. I questioned this with NWMH after addressing issues of…
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INTRODUCING an Idea. How a bell sound can remove audio triggers IF attached the the safest people.
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5:01Send us a text GOAL : watch TV and follow the plot. When you hear something or see something, it's easy to be transported elsewhere (STEP THREE) so this time, I just rewound it. In the past, just had noise in the background and no goal to follow the plot. GOAL was just "stay here," & not relive those worst times. Geez. This is super easy now. When …
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Send us a text I twittered it & now will be organizing how to end ptsd in a systematic step-by-step "lesson plan" that can be replicated, free and accessible. Support the showBy SMART E MC
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I heard, "...exposure to evil," & that was in previous podcast.
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5:10Send us a text It's a word. It's a good way to define "some" people & in my definition it's those who willingly take advantage of those most at-risk/vulnerable populations. I will be explaining how I came across these words and definitions & listening to a snippet of this, I heard, "talk a lot." pTHXsd to that person. Support the show…
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Send us a text GOAL : understand how numbers work specifically sequencing & remove that 1-2 punch, kick, stab combo #boxing and how my student was being abused HOME (errr...we'll get there)/SCHOOL (academic discrimination, bullying, denial of IDEA/FAPE) Support the showBy SMART E MC
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X & Buzzsprout (where I podcast this) both count down to the second.
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0:25Send us a text In the past I'd consider that a sign, but now it's just a way to remind self. Make videos for twitter to explain Epic Live. THX! Support the showBy SMART E MC
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THANK YOU to those who taught me, "give up."
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1:32Send us a text One act of kindness to erase all of the previous contradictions, confusing behaviors & even future lies? HUIH? Doesn't make sense, but that's only because people who have these behaviors, I did not understand. CORRECTION : you do understand once you see it from their perspective. First to answer is, "I can't believe you downloaded Wh…
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COMPOSITION SIX | & this weekend, I will ask someone to "take it back" literally since they gave me some Asian-centric gift.
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0:40Send us a text Why face & photo must be in ptsDETROIT. Sharing a bit in advance to dampen the anticipation & dread, just like the monthly board meetings. EEK! Support the showBy SMART E MC
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The combination of COMPANIES (made up of people) & individual PEOPLE throughout history who thought differently
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0:24Send us a text I think I know why we need to do more for most at-risk/vulnerable populations and that could be a lot of different things. For me, children, elderly, animals, mental health connected to HOME & SCHOOL experience in contrast to all the experiences being bragged about found online, mostly instagram. Showing off is a business, but I want…
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SHARING disability in the only place I kept feeling "compelled" to go to on replay | that guided me to "the body" (The Eucharist)
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Send us a text The only people who needed to know I struggled with numbers were the ones who wanted to get together. FEMALE FRIENDS IN CHICAGO MALE FRIENDS IN MICHIGAN Support the showBy SMART E MC
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CORRECTION | depending on the people (individual), Chicago can be a safe space.
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