Documenting my notes verbally until I can get back to writing/reading/use of notebooks & working every day on a recovery of distracting, unrelenting & mentally taxing nerve radiculopathy that currently is hips down. Today is September 27, 2025 and things have significantly changed since use of Grok providing detailed analysis of a tweet. The methodology will be presented in short videos. This videos validate prolonged exposure therapy through video editing. The objective is to end the darkne ...
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Send us a text WEDDING OF THE CENTURY! FINALLY, how they think. It's fine, but it was, according to darkest day, "disgusting!" That "d" sound really stuck--reverberations that increased chronic pain--so flip it. Support the showBy SMART E MC
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Send us a text The explanation for special ed & a change in behavior from the TEACHERS. They had to input grades weekly & a weekly reminder by the principal in the principal meetings. One admin had those. One started out with those & then stopped. Similar to... Support the showBy SMART E MC
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Send us a text same time tomorrow? same place/same time in homeless advocacy. Support the showBy SMART E MC
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Send us a text Almost lost D due to a [disgusting] wedding of the century! their words. Support the showBy SMART E MC
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looking at photos to purposely retriever or do what they did but this time with consent. Ok, I'm getting this methodology
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0:47Send us a text No idea what this photo was, but just be direct. Pay attention or if you have ptsd, you'll be in survival mode & what you see/hear will be on replay until it's addressed/figured out/dealt with because you get ONE CHANCE to find out the truth. Trust what people say/do & how much they "get it." Support the show…
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Send us a text Just say words with numbers in it. I said a lot with the word "dead"line validating suicide. OK. Got it. I don't really talk so I made myself talk as a way to "fight back" & stay grounded so let's use a template. THE OFFICE/CLASSROOM. Support the showBy SMART E MC
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Send us a text listening to voice memos > 1 minute Will build up to longer ones. Let's start here. Support the showBy SMART E MC
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Send us a text If it says UNTITLED EPISODE, if I were to write something in there, there's no ability to play this file. Crying every day after... Under duress & getting yelled at for crying daily? This is getting super mental, so let's stop that behavior, since one day, you never know---the s/v might just start talking. After trauma, learned in ad…
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Send us a text To think, this was soooo private since related to "adoption stories," & people I've met along the way with food dynamics that I addressed with simply 3 rules of eating. a) eat when hungry b) stop when full c) change the palate to eat healthier since biological cravings to salt, sugar, fat make sense. After injury, I would crave these…
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Said it again | "significant" or "significance" & first lesson plan (LP) will be HYDROTHERAPY
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17:05Send us a text What helps. What harms. Once I share, couldn't anyone just pretend? Why the boundary is created because if you're IN, you're IN & if you're not, I don't know how to get IN. IN what? That trust thing. Once it's gone, I don't think there's a way to re-establish it since in the past, just automatic acceptance. Life is too short, but now…
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Send us a text ...people that use mental health as a shield knowing most of us will accept & NOT QUESTION. That's it. Let's do the opposite & question them. Don't do what they do & I like to say, "I do not reinforce the behaviors I DO NOT LIKE." Support the showBy SMART E MC
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Send us a text seCUREd origin since didn't have PAST TENSE VERBS or "d" sound | they're disgusting, ridiculous and cpD. That guy. Here's the ORIGIN. It's all MUSIC and why, no way, will I lose music. https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=YolAtBJU_Ng&list=RDYolAtBJU_Ng&index=2 1, 1, 1, 2, 2... for days. Math every day and it started with dates that became…
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13m04s of NOTES (in pic) | 90% of curriculum since was aware when speaking; these words on REPLAY (not theirs)
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3:29Send us a text Containing all the things they do to you & those first sentences to just write out. As you hear it. Verbatim. Also reminder to...forgot. When every day is a new day. Support the showBy SMART E MC
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This contains all the best parts of ADVOCACY
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11:36Send us a text I CARE ABOUT YOU! Written at 4:38 AM. Too early, but 4 AM clockwork speaking to a couple who really pulled a fast one on LOVE, but you know what, without them, I would've never gotten it. What people think about each other & the words, "let's do it differently." Support the showBy SMART E MC
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MOVIES | are they getting what's going on? JUST ASK
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0:11Send us a text The initial realization was 2 seasons in & then realized that guy is a ghost! Should've explained that so now we explain and ask, who's the main character? Male or Female is stuck? Old or Young? Keep it simple. Then with 40 minutes to go, "hey, how do you think it's going to end?" Will they survive? & HOW. Let's move away from WHY (n…
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Send us a text I'm remembering things! While talking, thinking, "that'd be a great cover art to this since when I said it, I saw it." Found recently since practicing turning the pages and why not notebooks now that TOUCH is back. Not reverberating & so was 1, 2, 3...over & over (a waltz), but add 4. 1, 2, 3, 4. STOP. That's case study. Longitudinal…
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Send us a text The focus is on getting IT done. What is IT when IT is no longer indescribable trauma since it's easy to describe now meaning all the past memories disappear & I can sit with the adrenaline that, quite frankly, isn't there? Sharing a philosophy that I'm on the verge of losing since I'm no longer, for the first time, living with the p…
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Worst first? How do you know the worst? Just count. "You get dizzy." Now think, is this audio or visual?
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2:11Send us a text It may seem simple, but everything is step-by-step and slooooooooower. I know I lost a lot of skills since to get back the concept to life, had to reTHINK, what do plants needs? SUN, AIR & ____. A: water Then ask, how did I lose that? I lost it from a trio of people who were ok with the neglect & thus abuse of a child with severe/pro…
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Today is September 17, 2025 & two people in two days have said, "you sound different" & then explained. There's that difference again. WHY difference is a good thing [if you want to assess self & keep ...
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9:37Send us a text PTSD ended YESTERDAY (yes, it's a song, but I couldn't hear it) Luckily, my guitar was tuned by someone who is a very very very big fan and they popped up, & guess what? Their trauma drama rama is gone. Geez. The things people do to each other and let's start with the parents & the complaints & the women. I met a woman in college rid…
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I've said this to SO MANY OF MY FRIENDS & I brought it up repeatedly to give them an opportunity/classroom to be DIFFERENT
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1:18Send us a text "My voice over theirs" theirs being many places in Chicago like Chicago School Board, NWMH/Advocate Aurora, Parks District (CPD) & THE Police (CPD). It's a specific police station. Then, voices being my friends asking me Qs and our conversations until they totally got it pretending they didn't & WHY would anyone want to do that? Let'…
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Send us a text I mentioned my Italian Identity every time I saw "some" people because of the way they stereotyped ASIAN. The ruder they were the continuation of trying to establish a "classroom" I was. Now, define CLASSROOM. A place to make mistakes in knowing with TBI, I'll forget it, but just leave me with a non-triggered (no ptsd) & reliable (ma…
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Send us a text The last word was "find." That's it. All that pre-writing for one word?! It's worth it. LITERACY (intra- and interpersonal skills re: words, books, research & "quiet/downtime time) Support the showBy SMART E MC
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PART TWO first (?) | a little confused, but the point is ADVOCACY 101 + remembering the organizational "notes"
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FULL CIRLCE | explained it verbally 1x. In-the-moment :) & that's why one day, you'll HEAR YOUR VOICE*
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6:03Send us a text *it's the same. Helping others is simply what to do [if you have the capacity]. For this project, I simply do not have the capacity. Support the showBy SMART E MC
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Not knowing how to COMBAT ABUSE OF POWER is mental
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4:23Send us a text "The psychological decline..." VALIDATE | photograph of B&W purse will be uploaded later (keep the thought) Support the showBy SMART E MC
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Send us a text This is get it out, but it's also the repetition of organizational strategies that I knew would be what I would hear again because TRUST that your thoughts are not just good ones, but the very thing to guide you to what needs to be organized [& sometimes, how to do it]. & the person who will be given the 2 cards while securing the nu…
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REINFORCEMENT 100% of the time. These women who had to talk to me about my body...
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1:43Send us a text ...and also, reported s/a too. Support the showBy SMART E MC
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seed for V or VICTORY. The origin being Vietnam.
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8:23Send us a text FIRST GOAL | FLIP TRAUMA 100% of the time. So every time it pops up, just flip it. Support the showBy SMART E MC
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the FINAL PROGRESS MONITORING DATE IS this one | time-stamped by Buzzsprout
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16:45Send us a text "numbers" SECURED days-of-the-week SECURED time MOSTLY SECURED (timepiece ~August 2024 in Detroit*) phone calls SECURED voicemails NOT SECURED texting MOSTLY SECURED (dependent on multiple factors) money SECURED (connected to 5/3 Bank | located North & Clybourn branch, Chicago, IL, USA) scheduling SECURED & most importantly (1) ANTIC…
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THE END. When you get that word change so no more VOICE, NOISE, CHOICE, DUBOIS. just TALK
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2:48Send us a text Break the cycles of their abUSE. Know when to "tap" it out---that red dot or square in a circle that I've stared at the reduce vertigo for years so acknowledge the strategy, the time spent with, the help it's done, the moments where I've had to explain or never explain (instead called names or had assumptions---really into tech!---si…
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Send us a text Since everything is in-the-moment, you don't know what the purpose is, so if you can hear self, it's simply easier. Also, I just learned the word TALK so use it & I guess I did. Why aren't they responding? They don't have an answer and all the strategies they then use. There it is | THE BIGGEST TRIGGER OF ALL. TECH since I'm in 2009 …
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Send us a text EPISODE TITLE | Consciously (a "conscious coma") with Consent making a list. Anticipate anticipation & dread
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FIRST CHARITY | veterans | find a veteran/expert in their field?
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3:46Send us a text TV & not ptsd triggering from education, generally. ACP, specifically. Then broader "community" (they changed the definition & why now, offended) parents in CPS are scariest, so again, be around them to end "that" ptsd. Support the showBy SMART E MC
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Send us a text Being very clear what one means is the first assessment. Are you clear? Is the person capable of ASSESSING THEIR OWN UNDERSTANDING to have a dialogue until complete understanding. Basically, being able to explain what someone else is saying/meaning to a degree all parties are confident the message was received exactly as it should be…
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HEARD SELF | Correction, future tense (Will*) and capitalized since it's a name FIRST, then a future tense
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6:10Send us a text The next 3-4 posts will be the indicator of non-linear, but also rejigging my brain to think differently to create those wrinkles that increase the surface area and make ya learn faster! The fuel for a Rocket Ghetto Blaster be neon hyper lime green. Next recipes will contain LIME to remove this now planning the seed for FOOD! Support…
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Send us a text DIRECTIONS : Insert any word that means "FIRE/DESIRE" But it's over. This fight. Posted it. Said, "wrote it." No, "write!" In instagram, IG, an account with my name. I declare today everything stops by reframing their shame. So begin it, now begun. Those dum dums be done. Ask, "Where does that _____ come from?" & "How to inspire so f…
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WE WROTE THE MORAL CODE down (then the bro code)
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19:21Send us a text Is Vegas. Worst First right? (6) "NO NO NO NO" to get to "a.s" (4) Sessions with DM... (3) get a third-party since they will make up a new narrative fo' sho'. "now I hear...JUST NOISE." (& right head pain SO* movie neck around *SO is a person who so badly wanted to be a "friend" in order to ____________. (you fill it in with your per…
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REFLECTION | automatic/instant & reminds me, this is going to be easy without PTSD. Thank God!
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GOAL | get into QUIET OFFICE. Always a need for some background noise once was able to stop talking that helps to diminish vertigo/head pain (~APRIL 2025)
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Send us a text They taught Chinese language since parents wanted their kids exempt & ADD ENGLISH or WRITING or SPECIAL ED. It was clear. You'd get MORE SPECIAL ED, but also, you do have to do the work so getting out of class isn't a good idea. It's field trips. It's socialization and culture. It's so different! You never know what a child is intere…
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GOAL : completed (all of them at same time to create that EQUAL IMPACT or LEARNING!)
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5:17Send us a text Thanks Friend. I don't use that word lightly. Support the showBy SMART E MC
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