Part One: 32, The Years I Thought I’d Missed My Chance

What if the birthdays you once dreaded became reminders of how far you’ve actually come?

This episode was recorded just after I turned 32, a bit of a messy, honest reflection on the years I spent doubting myself, stuck in binge–purge cycles, and convinced I’d somehow missed my chance.

Spoiler: I hadn’t.

Most of the real breakthroughs didn’t even start happening until the last five or six years, which still feels wild to say. Somewhere in that time, I started meeting myself properly, learning to support myself, to trust myself again, and to stop living by beliefs that were never really mine.

I talk about the shame, the stuckness, and the slow process of building something new, not by fixing everything overnight, but by getting curious and actually letting life in.

It’s not polished, and it’s definitely not a “how-to” episode. It’s just me sharing what’s changed, what surprised me, and why life feels far from over, actually, it feels like it’s only just getting interesting.