This channel is dedicated to all those brave fellow 'adult survivors of child sexual abuse'. You are not alone out there, you are believed and supported in finding your voice & handing the shame back to the abusers - where it belongs. Each week I will add another interview with a 'fellow survivor' to help support our community in finding their way to truth and freedom, which only real truth can bring. Please feel free to reach out if you would also like to be a guest on the show. About Me: I ...
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HUSH No More With Dr. Vanessa is a platform to hear Dr. Vanessa and her guests reveal the truth about the HUSH Topics and innovative ways to heal holistically and spiritually. HUSH Topics include sexual assault, child sexual abuse, incest, domestic violence, sex trafficking, sexual harassment, and addiction. Dr. Vanessa Dunn Guyton interviews amazing guests that will help you address your own personal healing journey. You Have A Right To Tell It & Heal!
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Unfiltered stories of Christian women walking through pain, triumph, and transformation—and how God met them in every moment. Every woman has a story. Not the polished, picture-perfect version we often share, but the real one—marked by heartbreak, healing, struggle, and redemption. Dear Diaries: Her Story is where those stories are told. Hosted by Roserbie Theoc, this podcast is a sacred space where Christian women open up about their journeys, sharing raw, unfiltered testimonies of how God ...
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BITE-SIZE PERSONAL STORIES OF SURVIVING LIFE CHANGING EXPERIENCES: Hosted by Luke Colson and Kyle Wise, we feature weekly guests and explore extreme personal life changing experiences and the journey emotional and physical recovery. Each guest discusses their story of how their lives were turned upside down, by unexpected events. Stories like surviving a car crash, surviving abuse, being paralyzed in an accident, witnessing a crime.. and many more! Luke and Kyle will take an honest, raw, yet ...
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Feet of Clay – Confessions of the Cult Sisters – What's it like to live in a Christian cult commune? How the hell do smart people get brainwashed into crazy beliefs and behaviors? Tracey & Sharon share their parallel journeys into and out of Last Days Ministries, led by Christian music super-star Keith Green (and later his wife Melody Green). Plus they interview others who also got out of high-control groups and toxic churches. Arranged marriages? Purity culture virgins? Religious trauma? Su ...
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Jessica Minhas, host and founder of I'll Go First®, dives into the topics and conversations that we want to have but are a little afraid to talk about or aren't sure where to start. Celebrate the stories of courageous overcomers, inspiring mental health champions, and those boldly stepping into taboo spaces and inviting us into a full life. Listen, learn, and heal with people just like us who look adversity in the eye and say, “I will not stand down. I'll go first.”
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From Widowhood to New Love: How Trusting God Rebuilt My Life (Her Story of Healing and Marriage After Loss)
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1:01:44Six years ago, I thought my story ended with grief... but God had a plot twist waiting — and it all started with a DM. Welcome to another powerful episode of Dear Diaries: Her Story Podcast! I'm your host, Rose Theo, and today, we're diving deep into Mia’s breathtaking story of faith after loss, healing after heartbreak, and finding love again afte…
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S5 EP19: Michael's Story - My Confidence Vanished In An Instant!
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35:31Send us a text Michael Shaw joins the WTFMU! Podcast to discuss mindset, after experiencing a total loss of confidence and self belief at a pivotal time in his life, that nearly took him out! Michael has overcome the traumas of a violent childhood, losing his father to suicide, & raising kids battling anxiety, and above all, found the resilience to…
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Having survived this trauma, understand that your body went into the 4 trauma responses, fight, flight, freeze of fawn. Reason: You had a lot of adrenaline cursing through you as you were in survival mode. This affected your central nervous system including mentally, emotionally and physiologically. Now as an adult that is safe, you will became dra…
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Handing the Shame Back is proud to return for the third year in a row with our GLOBAL AWARENESS DAY (16 June). This day is dedicated to raising awareness of child sexual abuse, honouring adult survivors — including those who didn’t make it, and most importantly, shifting the silence. WHEREVER YOU ARE in the world, we invite you to join us for a 30-…
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S5 EP18: Jonathan's Story - From Hollywood To Jail!
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40:58Send us a text Incredible Episode ALERT!: Jonathan Schwartz was once Hollywood’s most trusted financial advisor, managing icons like Beyoncé, Mariah Carey, and Gwyneth Paltrow. Known as the "diva whisperer," he seemed untouchable. But behind the glitz and glam, his secret drug and gambling addictions led him to embezzle over $4.7 million from the v…
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Reg Johnston Survivor. Trauma Informed AOD Clinician. Survivor Advocate Reg was abused by his sister 13 years older than him, who groomed him at the age of 12 mainly through the use of pornography. His home life consisted of confused boundaries, with secrets and lies always a feature. He wants people to know that drugs and alcohol don’t define you,…
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I Told God He Wasn’t My Type... Then God Said ‘Marry Him’ Anyway
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1:04:09What happens when God completely wrecks your relationship goals? In this hilarious, faith-filled, and oh-so-humbling episode of Dear Diaries, Roserbie Theoc sits down with her friend Nancy Cole to unpack the story she never thought she’d tell. Nancy was minding her business, serving God, staying in her lane — until a quiet, awkward coworker named L…
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S5 EP17: Tiffany & Rachel's Story - From Addiction To Freedom
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38:04Send us a text WTFMU Welcomes Rachel Pastor and Tiffany Hurd from Golden Rule Mushrooms. This podcast remains impartial to opinions on these kinds or medications and remedies and we want to keep an open space for all. Rachel talks about overcoming a grueling a five-year battle with heroin addiction and homelessness, and its a really engaging story …
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The known facts about being triggered are these: We don't know when they're going to occur, or how they will occur. What this means is that we cannot prepare for that which we cannot know. These triggers can appear through anything that involves one or any of the five senses; sight, smell, sound, taste, or touch: triggering a memory or experience o…
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S5 EP16: Dave's Story - A Man's Resilience
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36:21Send us a text Dave grew up in an almost perfect household: calm, loving and trusting. That all changed when he met and married an abusive woman. In Dave' words 'By all accounts she resembles a narcissist. She pretended to be a wonderful mother to our children and a loving wife to me. Behind closed doors, it was a different story' Dave was a natura…
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Q&A Session Join us on this Q&A Session where Gloria answers questions posed by you, the Survivors. Ranging from how to manage a family who still believe the predator, to is it even possible to go on to have a loving and healthy relationship as an adult. The range of questions is moving, and Gloria, as always provides calm and measured responses th…
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From Rock Bottom to Purpose: Kathleen Senat’s Journey of Faith, Purity & Trusting God
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16:29“I lost everything—my job, my car, my comfort—but that’s exactly when God showed me my purpose.” What if everything familiar in your life disappeared overnight? Kathleen Senat knows that feeling all too well. After giving birth to her daughter, she found herself stripped of stability and forced to rely on one thing alone—her faith. In this episode,…
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S5 EP15: Sara's Story - A One Way Ticket To Anywhere!
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38:41Send us a text At age twenty-four, Sara Alvarado bought a one-way ticket from the USA midwest to Mexico determined to heal from years of hard partying and sexual trauma. In this raw and inspiring episode, Sara takes us on a journey as she struggles with being newly sober, unexpectedly in love - and then suddenly, terrifyingly pregnant. Guided from …
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Meet Diane Payne Survivor Diane was sexually abused by her brother-in-law from age 12 to 16. He was 24 when it started. She told no one for 40 years. Fast forward 4 years, & last year he finally got convicted in NZ. He got home detention for 8 months, due to a plea deal & the laws in the 1980's, when the abuse occurred. Don’t miss her story here. Y…
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S5 EP14: Brinn's Story - Sexually Abused As A Child For 12 Years
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36:57Send us a text Brinn Langdale was 18 years old, when she was asked a question that changed her life forever. Someone asked if her older brother had ever "done anything to her." The answer was yes. For 12 years she had been molested by him. Growing up she had no clue what was happening and because of all the ways that the trauma was presenting itsel…
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Sometimes you have to name your trauma to explain your trauma. Guess what Dr. Vanessa named her trauma Join her tonight as she discusses her experiences with Military Sexual Trauma.
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Feelings of shame and guilt are common to Survivors. This is especially true if we had siblings we felt we couldn't protect, or that we had to lie to protect the abuser which hurt our siblings even more. There is a process over time of healing, which requires great self compassion and tenderness. Don’t rush it and please give yourself some grace. T…
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Surviving the Unthinkable: A Testimony of Trauma, Healing, and Faith
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53:29"I shouldn't be here—not after the abuse, the addiction, the near-death experiences. But I am. And this is why." In this brutally honest episode of Dear Diaries: Her Story, Christine L. Scott lays it all bare. No filters. No fluff. Just the raw, uncut story of a life marked by unimaginable trauma, addiction, and pain—and the relentless pursuit of h…
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051 - The Perverted Pleasure of POWER - Another Former Employee's Revelations About Child Sexual Predator Steve Greisen (husband of 2nd Chapter of Acts Singer Nelly Greisen, founder of Exploration Films ...
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1:45:25Send us a text TRIGGER WARNING - Discussion of sex crimes and other yucky stuff. If you haven't already, listen to these episodes first: https://www.buzzsprout.com/2078827/episodes/15646635 https://www.buzzsprout.com/2078827/episodes/15743414 https://www.buzzsprout.com/2078827/episodes/16704189 One of the original news articles about Steve Greisen'…
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S5 EP13: Vanessa's Story - Paralyzed and Fighting For My Life
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35:50Send us a text Vanessa Abraham was a mother, a working professional, and a speech therapist, until a rare disorder left her voiceless, motionless, and dependent on others for survival. This story is a must listen and simply extraordinary! Join us as Vanessa recounts the days and weeks that the disorder took over, her struggle through the worst of i…
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Sean "Diddy" Combs-Was He Setup? Yay or Nay
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46:06Join Dr. Vanessa Guyton as she breakdown the indictment of Sean "Diddy" Combs? People have said that the government set him up? What do you think?
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Meet Sue Philip Survivor Sue was abused from preschool age by her father. She blocked the memories out for many years until she was in her 40’s.. Her parents were part of the mormon church, and it was not until she left the church as an adult, that she was able to remember the details of what her father had done to her and her siblings. Watch the f…
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S5 EP12: Dr Patricia Smith's Story - Homeless By 10 Years Old
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30:17Send us a text Dr. Patricia V. Smith, joins us from Jamaica, to bring us her incredible story of escaping a terrifying life as a child on the streets of Jamaica! Dr Smith was homeless by then age of 10, and she talks openly about abandonment, abuse, and homelessness in her home town, to journeying to the USA, and becoming the CEO of Sweet P Home Ca…
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Surviving R. Kelly-Who Should Be Held Accountable
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52:20Join Dr. Vanessa to discuss the predatory actions of R. Kelly. Do you think other people should be held accountable? She wants to know your opinion.
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Many people consider that mind games are something that are done to us and that we are being manipulated by others. No one ever considers the bigger truth: that we play mind games with ourselves, more than with any other person, and we do it in a multitude of ways: like testing ourselves, overthinking, questioning ourselves and through sabotaging o…
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Embracing Grace: A Journey from Religion to Relationship
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47:21What happens when faith moves beyond religion into a life-changing relationship with God? In this heartfelt episode of Dear Diaries, Yribel shares her transformative journey of discovering the true meaning of grace. Growing up in a Catholic household and attending Catholic school, she was surrounded by discussions of God—but something always felt m…
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Parliamentary Select Committee Hearings - Gloria Masters
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7:13On behalf of Handing the Shame Back, I had the privilege of presenting to the Parliamentary Select Committee on Child Sex Trafficking within NZ, (we are wanting increased penalties added to the slavery offences amendment bill). Although the experience was daunting, the submission was well received. Watch the video here: https://youtu.be/GwndoRE3kRI…
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S5 EP11: Sandy's Story - Surviving Stage 4 Cancer
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31:21Send us a text After being diagnosed with stage 4 cancer, Sandy Duarte turned her experience into an opportunity for personal growth and healing. In less than a year, despite being separated from her family (who are in Canada while she is in LA), she survived stage 4 cancer. In this episode we discus the moment she found out, and the mindset that s…
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The Effects of President Trump's Executive Orders on Survivors
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58:49Join Dr. Vanessa as she gives her opinion and invite Survivors, Advocates, and Nonprofit Organizations to share how they have been affected by President Trump's Executive Orders. Remember You Have A Right To Tell It & Heal!
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Meet Hanz Freller Survivor Advocate. Dad. Author He was abused in care by a St John of God Brother. The abuse was to span several years and was calculated and manipulative in the grooming of him throughout those vulnerable teenage years. You can reach out to Hanz here: Facebook: https://www.facebook.com/hanz.freller Instagram: https://www.instagram…
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S5 EP10 Lena's Story - My Boyfriend Had Multiple Lives
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51:31Send us a text Let's revisit this amazing episode, with Lena Papadopoulos, one of the most jaw dropping episodes in recent series. Lena was in love, her year long relationship had seen her plan to move in with her boyfriend, and even meet his family, however, something wasn't right. Constant 'work trips', always changing plans, gaslighting, and emo…
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First Q&A Session Join us on this, our very first Q&A Session where Gloria answers questions posed by you, ‘yes you’, the Survivors. Ranging from what to look for in kids who are being trafficked to coping with seeing your child experience the worst trauma possible, Gloria provides calm and measured responses that help soothe and restore equilibriu…
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Today marks the start of something powerful — 2,700 books are being unboxed, packaged, and prepared for delivery to schools across New Zealand. Every book sent is a step toward a safer future. If you’d like to help us get them into schools, please consider donating: https://donate.stripe.com/aEU4iIfR1b8Pdpu7ss (Reference: ‘Book Distribution’). At H…
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Sometimes as survivors we can feel guilty, frozen or just plain wrong about having sex. As adults this has impact beyond what we can imagine. Have a look at this video as it just may help free you up from anything holding you back from enjoying intimacy with a loved one. Watch the full clip here: https://youtu.be/j-hwv9GTetA For more information, r…
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Today is the day! We are beyond excited to have received the books, "Keeping Kids Safe", which will be distributed to schools across New Zealand. We are still accepting donations to cover book distribution costs. If you’re able to help, please use this direct link: https://donate.stripe.com/aEU4iIfR1b8Pdpu7ss and include the reference "Book Distrib…
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How Forgiveness Restored My Relationship with My Father
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31:53Forgiveness isn’t just about the other person—it’s about your own healing. Dr. Lessilee Jones shares her personal journey of restoration and reconciliation. In this deeply moving episode of Dear Diaries, Dr. Lessilee Jones opens up about her emotional journey toward forgiving and reconnecting with her father after years of estrangement. From childh…
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050 - The Bookkeeper's Tale: In the Basement at Exploration Films/ExploreFlix, “Christian” Companies Led by Child-Sexual-Predator-Felon Steve Greisen (aka Greasy Grimy Gross Grafter Greisen), Husband ...
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1:18:34Send us a text TRIGGER WARNING - Discussion of attempted sex crime against a minor. We are so honored to speak with Karisten, who worked directly for Steve Greisen at Exploration Films / ExploreFlix, for 4 years from 2020 to 2024. She was the executive administrative assistant responsible for the financials, communications and so much more. Steve a…
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S5 EP9: Rob's Story - My Toxic Boss Drove Me To Suicide Attempt
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51:00Send us a text Rob Kalwarowsky had it all, a high achiever with a well paid job. All that changed when a toxic boss began to pick away at Rob. Over time Rob lost his self belief, confidence, self love, and eventual lost the will to live. This nightmare scenario is all too common and can bring people to their knees, often bringing up childhood traum…
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Meet Susan Gold Survivor, Author and Transformationalist. She was the middle child born in a family where generational abuse was undealt with and therefore continued. She was abused by her brother between 7 to 10 years of age with some flashbacks of both her father and grandfather being abusers as well. She believes that finding kindness for yourse…
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S5 EP8: Nicola's Story - Surviving Cancer My Way
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41:17Send us a text 'Apple Cider Vinegar' is a show on Netflix about Belle Gibson, the woman that fooled the world that she had brain cancer, and healed it 'holistically'! She made millions, taking charity money and raking in donations for a disease she did not have. It has sparked a wider conversation about beating Cancer holistically, steering clear o…
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Book Distribution Donation Update - 21 February 2025
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2:37We have now raised $2,500. If you are able to help, please use this direct link: https://donate.stripe.com/aEU4iIfR1b8Pdpu7ss and include the reference 'Book Distribution' to ensure the funds are allocated to processing and postage. Every $10 means one school receives a copy of the book! Thank you. You may just save some kids! We are on all social …
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It is entirely natural for you as a survivor of child sexual abuse to struggle with sex as an adult. some survivors have a constant battle with this, preferring to be celibate in the end. For others guilt, fear and dissociation can occur. Wherever you are at is entirely normal, and can be worked with if it is of concern. Don’t miss this podcast. We…
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Breaking Free: How I Escaped an Abusive Relationship & Found Healing | Part 2
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28:14She nearly lost everything—her job, her safety, even her life. But this was the wake-up call that led Gianna to break free, heal, and find self-worth. In Part 2 of Gianna’s heart-wrenching yet inspiring testimony, she shares the darkest moment of her journey—when an abusive relationship put her in real danger. But out of the pain came a breakthroug…
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S5 EP7: Amanda's Story - The Journey Beyond My Sisters Suicide
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41:12Send us a text Amanda Harris has experienced significant childhood trauma, a wildly violent abusive relationship in her late teens and early 20’s and has battled and overcome addiction and various other adversities including losing everything she owned in a house fire! However, Her greatest awakening, and the birth of her business, came after the l…
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As children, we were always dependent on the adults around us to meet our needs. This is common and expected, as we were unable to feed or clothe ourselves. However, guilt does feature because we had to accommodate the adults around us, even when we felt scared and uncomfortable. For more information, resources, or coaching — whether you are a surv…
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S5 EP6: Joe L's Story - The Carnage Of Parental Abuse
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42:55Send us a text Joe L has lived a very very crazy life, and he is only 40! His path to success and stability, is rooted in a series of devastating personal tragedies that reshaped his life. This episode is explicit and comes with a trigger warning, as we cover topics of all kinds of abuse. Joe had an abusive, alcoholic mother who died young to her d…
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Surviving Toxic Love: My Journey Through Heartbreak & Healing | Part 1
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25:37She thought she had found love, but each relationship left her more broken. In this raw episode, Gianna shares how toxic love nearly destroyed her—until she found healing. What happens when the search for love leads to heartbreak over and over again? Gianna opens up about her journey through toxic relationships, emotional wounds, and self-discovery…
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Meet Steven Shelton Survivor and Author Was abused by many males beginning when he was just 4 years old. His mother walked in on the abuse, saw it, and walked back out again. This was the beginning of Steven’s nightmare, culminating in him developing Dissociative Identity Disorder or DID. He firmly believes that passage of time, a loving spouse, an…
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S4 EP6: Andre's Story - Breaking Free From Past Traumas
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49:36Send us a text Andre Paradis is a relationship and NLP coach. Andre comes from a background where I had an absent father and in consequence, found himself being overprotected by his mother – this shaped his vision of women a certain way until he discovered that, in fact, he did not know anything about them!! He worked hard to change his way of thin…
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