Best Knowing God Built You For That Very Purpose Podcasts (2025)

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STEP TWO | the reflection 10:47

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Send us a text In the past, a reflection was to recall any bit of information to try & connect it to a thought to see if I could do the cognitive and literacy skill of RECALL. There are some very fluent readers who can say every word, but there's no meaning. They read pages and pages, but ask them a question (literal or inferential) about what they…

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STEP THREE | transform it into something that can help others 2:17

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Send us a text Once it's* gone, it's* gone. *IT being indescribable trauma since you deSCRIBEd it, lived with it, lived through it & processed it to now become your A PRIORI or prior knowledge. Support the showBy SMART E MC

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STEP ONE | get it out (hopes & desires) 2:24

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Send us a text HOPES | return to my life before assaults & learn a bit about myself that enables me a) know people faster b) avoid worst behaviors permanently so nothing sticks in since I absorb it all & learning from that or having "gratitude for the experience"* isn't effective anymore c) find that passion I found with education DESIRES | create …

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TRYING TO GET OUT of the HOUSE (on-time still) | use your voice. 21:53

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Send us a text useyourvoic3 and that 3 is someone insisting on a password & their "tip" & how I've reLIVED this in prolonged exposure therapy. That is 100% effective imho. Next goal is to DO IT FASTER. Support the showBy SMART E MC

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72 \\ The 6 FEARS that STOP you from running a successful business (And HOW TO OVERCOME THEM!) 27:30

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Hey my friend, You’ve probably heard the quote—“An entrepreneur is the only person who can go from sheer exhilaration to sheer terror and back again in the same 24 hours.” And wow… isn’t that the truth? In this episode, we’re getting honest about the emotional rollercoaster of building a business—especially while still working your 9–5. The fears t…

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CORRECTION | whatsApp and heard self as well as www research... 3:59

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Send us a text & will remember for next time. Support the showBy SMART E MC

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Seed for WhatsApp, male bullying & video (with consent) | RELIABILITY. You say what you're going to do or update matters #mentalHealth #ptsd #confusion #whathappened #questioning 16:59

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Send us a text It's all in there & next podcast contains a correction from this one since I can hear self. Don't forget, start reading descriptions since they're my notes, but now, I don't have to share. Support the showBy SMART E MC

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BACKGROUND NOISE as a distraction & what do I listen to? 0:55

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Send us a text A mix of pop culture and random videos & now shorts, the internet introduces. What I am not listening to? Politics! This is a memory of how we cannot talk about politics and someone's over-reaction to it & then one day, she came running from a different room---always listening---so it's true. When you don't follow, you don't know and…

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There were two "get it out" (STEP ONE) and a reflection later, but I didn't upload. 5:47

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Send us a text No need to since going back to "PRIVATE." THANK GOODNESS. I will just reread the descriptions since I wrote it enough times to remind self to simply read it & then reorganize, but it really starts with stoop-it (as in, "what do you want to do tonight?" "let's stoop-it" which is kind of just a continuation of HS, but with the added bo…

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Katherine Wolf on how joy and suffering can coexist, truly wrestling with God's plan, and owning your story. 46:01

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This week on the show, we’re honored to welcome Katherine Wolf for a powerful conversation about hope, healing, and choosing joy in the midst of suffering. At just 26 years old—only six months after the birth of her first son—Katherine suffered a massive brain stem stroke that radically altered the course of her life. She shares about her ongoing j…

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I do not hear ANY REFLECTION | PART ONE 8:09

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Send us a text Finally, I can write this story. I will be reliving multiple conversations and as that bubble up, I'm going to write it verbatim & record what happens with the memory that I was a teacher. My identity because I want to move away from identifying ourselves in solely sexual or romantic ways. There's enough titilating & people trying to…

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I do not hear ANY REFLECTION | PART TWO 13:46

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Send us a text Stopped at grief. This isn't hitting me anymore since death was all around me. Every day, I thought, I'm going to die (suicide) since I did report this to healthcare (NWMH & again with Advocate Aurora--and "advocate doctor" does not mean is an advocate by the way--whoops) and that everyone else would die, too. I see self as the rainb…

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71 \\ Want to go ALL-IN? How to know for sure if you should start your own business (4 strong indicators for SELF-EMPLOYMENT)! 20:05

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Hey my friend, These days, it feels like everyone is becoming a successful entrepreneur—or at least that’s what social media wants you to believe. You see it all over TikTok, YouTube, Instagram… and it can leave you wondering if you’re supposed to jump in too. But here’s the truth: it takes more than excitement or the idea of making money to truly …

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I listened to a lot & each day is an opportunity to lay a foundation for tomorrow, if you recall the day before (yesterday) 2:09

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Send us a text The goal was to listen to more than the day before & hold the day, take notes and indicate which ones to listen to since in the deSCRIPTion because I cannot determine "the worst," those having to go first to put way "first time" (that excuse for life until you say, 'no thanks') so I'll let the universe decide. Why these voice memos? …

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A true deadline & the first I've made since the beginning. Scroll all the way down = June 9, 2022. PROGRESS/RECOVERY does take time. 0:52

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Send us a text This podcast is inspired by putting away ptsd created by monthly zoom meetings with BOD at HOA in Chicago, IL, USA. They blame the residents. They blame the homeless people (there's only one in the park). They used intel on me when I joined trying to start committees in a familiar place (where I live) since safety was my #1 thing and…

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NOTES in Description. Origin of WORLD ONE | Who provided the word "significant?" since it was during survival when asking about PHOTOS. 4 Categories in SURVIVAL 3:09

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Send us a text WORLD ONE and predatory behavior I hadn't heard since middle school! Luckily, I could ask someone about it. Support the showBy SMART E MC

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WORLD TWO | POEM TWO | to, too, 2 3:17

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Send us a text True collaboration & comments that "ruin it." How noise helped and will explain how I transitioned between rooms in the house with a speaker (keep talking). I step on something & you can hear the slight distress in the voice and lastly, I said it again, "The Mystery of the Leopard Print Bag," and I think it's ready to write those sce…

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SAME BEHAVIOR | why ptsd exists | warning! 0:14

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Send us a text Dave/David M.'s eyes popping up & 2x from one person who used same excuse, just used it while I was in survival mode so I CAUGHT IT and within rapid succession (not sure if it was weeks, but these memories toggled off each other) with two different couples being unbelievable when it's kind of obvious. The audio being, "You had to kee…

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NOTES in DESCRIPTION since that is the worst neurologist ever & a starting point to dampen photos with an xmas letter. CORRECTION : writing workshop or literature discussion 0:23

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Send us a text Why we ask students to "use your own life experience/personal knowledge with evidence from the text," & this is a very hard skill. Why when you ask, "why do you think that way?" or state, "explain your thinking," some [neurologists] really get tripped up. Support the showBy SMART E MC

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Finally, SPONTANEOUS CONVERSATION | just write the scene & emphasis of importance of giving people your time/attention/energy to MAKE NEW MEMORIES 4:25

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Send us a text Give people new things to talk about, but also, realize, some people are just really sick. #anxiety #sobriety & this dynamic that I didn't get, but in this voice memo, it's clearly something that will never go away until I MAKE THE CONSCIOUS DECISION to "care more about myself than fear of what they're going to do" because it ends #s…

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SEED : video & start with the best #adoptdontshop 2:20

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Send us a text "Beets is a beat down." This was a video, but I want to start connecting to that trust thing. Individuals who care for dogs, support shelters & assist in the adoption process (socializing & behavior modification) are TRUSTED. This puppy is not 100% housebroken, but after a short time started to indicate "potty" by sitting by the day …

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(NOTES : read the description) origin: IVAN | CURIOUS ABOUT how to know if someone's curiosity is genuine or simply a way to be manipulative. 3:56

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Send us a text PART I "Life Before Ivan [the terrible]" PART II "Life After Ivan" (I didn't hear "the terrible" so am ahead of audio triggers) HOMEWORK : look for number 17 & explain how this became a tt (trauma/trigger) and why doing this podcast became a way to dampen its origin. CLUE : BOD at HOA. Negative experiences with school & homeless advo…

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Plant the seed for TECH & why it's so difficult. There's all these bits & pieces and also, I've never wanted to be connected to tech [due to threats to loved ones] 1:16

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Send us a text I've been charging all tech devices thoroughly including plugging in at night. It started ~10 days ago, and is nightly starting Monday June 16, 2025. Support the showBy SMART E MC

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TV says it better sometimes or a memory connects | Consent was spoken about every day in terms of GOOD CHOICES (what do you consent to), mental health or TREATMENT & identifying r-culture 0:38

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Send us a text The word was "rape-y" and I didn't say. It let me know this person was aware & now I understand, how it worked out so well for so long. It's unusual to be with someone whose mental health is an every day check in, but apparently that's women, according to "some" women and when I was told, "I was just trying to change him," I rejected…

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Making calls is, no was, difficult. Never with advocacy. 0:22

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Send us a text Updates with Mr. Baker. Support the showBy SMART E MC

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Aware & Awake | this was a phrase I'd say for step one (be aware) & then step two (now awake) that yes, this memory is on [ptsd] replay 3:13

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Send us a text The First Step is to (a) describe the triggers & (b) quantify them. We're not quite as Wisemind yet so while (a) is from NWMH, (b) originates from behavioralism & objective data collection to than create an individualized education plan (IEP). I want the duration: from Awareness (this is familiar or I know this) to Awake (100% certai…

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I didn't know you could CHANGE YOUR NAME (learning tech through tech) 0:35

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Send us a text I have no idea who I'm speaking about, but the important part is the word "follow" or "following you," you will go back to that memory of being stalked. Why I put birdseed on the balcony to watch the cats stalk the birds to help dampen the stress & trauma. Support the showBy SMART E MC

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April 19, 2025 | not everyone who experiences health concerns will be "KIND" (see description) 0:21

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Send us a text this conversation about a photo did happen--couldn't find the digital copy (ok) & the answer to when you listened to the voice memo was not. The only difference is ASKING THE QUESTION to understand tech better, but also providing the environment (like a classroom) to do ONE ACT THAT RESTORES RELIABILITY (formally, "one act of kindnes…

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the word NOPE is like no, but it's not the same. 0:34

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Send us a text KNOPE to get to NOPE (someone used to say this word a lot & was around one of my students with special needs...) Then ptsd & the "t" is "thanks" and then became "no, thanks." Support the showBy SMART E MC

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Untitled Episode 1:50

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Send us a text Recorded Jan 17, 2025 & it is did not "conclude TV," but today June 18, 2025, I did secure numbers. Last bit. I said it since I was asking Siri something different than "what's the weather today?" then "...tomorrow?" & "...Sunday?" and how tall & how heavy are animals. Usually just giraffes & pachyderms (elephants, hippos & rhinos) e…

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"PRIVATE SCHOOL CHOICE --past & present" | American Educator, FALL 2017 10:50

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Send us a text Not what I expected, but I was just responding to "school choice" in the title. This was a decision to confront the principal, his name being on the announcement, to kind of say, "you don't scare me," & ask the question re: the parent room on the first floor that year when it wasn't covered to a classroom, but the year after I was as…

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mm & MM 0:59

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Send us a text the lower case one is who to 100% reject saying "doesn't represent me," & MM is who deserves to hear me without their ptsd before making final decision on how to tell this story. Support the showBy SMART E MC

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Reflection or STEP TWO | what comes up immediately after-the-moment 4:48

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Send us a text When in the moment, containing PTSD, I said just whatever. None of it matters & it's more a tool to understand the people around me since trusting the wrong person is the greatest fear since I know, I 'm super gullible, super trusting & I hold my tongue, until this experience with violence only because I learned survival for some is …

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Y/N Question ASKED & if no response, that's a "no." 2:56

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Send us a text The question was, "do you want to verbally explain since I had to share, emerging reader & I did not get your texts, to explain your thinking since I don't get it? Yes or no?" The best one can do & this is under ADA (American with Disability Act) which isn't a law, more like a guideline because you have to write a letter asking for a…

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This first time AUDIO TRIGGER refers to the excuse, "this is my first time" & was always with "my parents didn't teach me." 0:13

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Send us a text DESCRIPTION : stating the first voices to dampen audio ptsd created individually was to go back to familiar (Broadway) to be in an unfamiliar (TV) space. NOTES : firsTime. nEXtime. last time. tt = audio trigger for BT (what' the one time you had adversity?) & why tt (that sound created reverberations) & encompasses the words "trauma,…

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TAKE A BREAK & tomorrow*... 23:41

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Send us a text ...just heard that word* in what I was listening to (weird!) ---will share that in the only space that matters when it comes to that topic. There's a bit about my eX in here, but hey, I've had several & I will never say who or when or where, just remind people that trauma isn't easy to get through & that without Neptune who taught me…

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the final F word. 8:20

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Send us a text If you know it, you're smarter than I, but this will be WHERE I BEGIN INTERNET & LIBRARY research. In the past, preferred that---absolute quiet, no one near me---then needed noise to drown out other noise to match all these sensations on overdrive, but once you decide what is THE WORST, to tackle that FIRST, knowing the objective is …

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Prioritizing Dating After Marriage- Some of our favorite dates, how we did it with little money and little time, and why every date doesn't need to be a "whole big thing" | Ep. 62 34:35

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This week we are talking about dating in marriage. Now that we are parents, it has become more important to us than ever to prioritize moments that are focused on the building of our marriage. We have dated in seasons of minimal time, minimal money, minimal privacy...all three at the same time lol and we get into some of the practical ways we kept …

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Take a break. The first PART is MUSIC (how many people have you known who listen to the same song over & over again?) 0:08

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Send us a text They're listening to the words that help! Also, using Siri for more than weather just to be exposed to numbers. Also, deleted 31 recordings. Changed the label/title to many and listening & finding one in particular over & over again connected to how to dampen ptsd connected to loss of numbers/dyscalculia. 5/3 BANK is CONNECTED. Suppo…

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LAST WORD is "Nebraska" & when people repeat themselves over & over again... 0:33

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Send us a text When people repeat themselves & now the seed for the oppressed white man, an Apple laptop (rage and an opinion I've not heard since the story was... the opposite), cultural dominance & not being asked Qs is the new status symbol. No, new to me. Got it! Thanks for explaining it. Support the show…

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Same words almost. Different content totally. 0:25

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Send us a text "I know you more than you know yourself," & what thought popped up? That is why in DBT all these memories came rushing in at the same time & those moments/scenes were on replay. The words were, yea, as a s/v & that's why you think you can DO WHATEVER YOU WANT. As long as you keep me in fear. Heard it. Stopped it at that point & now l…

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Not sure I recorded this then, but maybe since I saw a lot of kids being bullied, but the first... oh my. 0:35

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Send us a text How people protect each other & how people protect themselves while sacrificing who is "different." Their words. Support the showBy SMART E MC

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Just wrote about this. Now I hear it. That's it. 0:03

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Send us a text Recipe for artichokes will be in the writing somewhere. This is the origin. Very few will make the connection & that's the purpose. I'm private & I really don't need people to be curious about me, want to get to know me (I don't share what I like nor dislike. I'm happy to help, but boundaries at all times), think about me in any way …

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SCENE | when you hear something the same way for a long time, just write it & see if the next day, it's less. 0:50

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Send us a text These are bits-and-pieces and when you can talk about it, it can end, but you have to do one more thing to ensure that happens. Make a decision if you're putting this away privately or publicly and if publicly, how to do it? Since ART, FILM, TV already exist & is the very thing I've avoided a lot, the first recommendation being "Muri…

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I used to watch KOREAN HORROR with one person. Only those that needed to know a) why I'm not into horror much b) after assaults, I won't be going to the movies with you--sorry 0:24

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Send us a text The importance of this is how I used to watch Korean Horror (not any other culture) before assaults & now, no way! I could not watch a lot of horror anyway, my limit being Stephen King, Freddy Krueger, Child's Play & often say the only Korean thing about me is a love of... ...she knows the movie. She's the only one who had to know be…

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UNLOCKED TV | for some, the best voices. For me, sometimes they just say it better 0:13

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Send us a text This is easy now when you don't care [about fear]. Support the showBy SMART E MC

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Those who repeat themselves & those who repeat with a purpose---to get a reaction. 1:06

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Send us a text I know I got "yesterday" since I told two people, "hey! what you're doing [taking advantage of the fact every day is a new day] isn't going to work since I know what happened yesterday so the conversation today is in direct contradiction" which is an identified prompting event & broad enough that it's a behavior that can connect to o…

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Tomorrow, will be calling BEST BUY | customer service. 9:40

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Send us a text ...but also, mental health & customer service since everyone has that experience. BB is the connective thread to Kohls & bees & instead of avoiding or giving up on tech, instead, press in/dive in and confront all fears & why I'll discuss how I used the commercial world around me to basically do PET or prolonged exposure therapy. Supp…

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PTSD present & why instead of "that," I'll listen to "this" 6:44

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Send us a text 1) get consent, explain what advocacy is (taught when become one to s/v in ER) 2) identify trU*e supports *write about NeptUne today & create RSVP since dropping seed for invite-only. Must be part of another "club" in order to attend this since only one person needs to know about the assaults & to rebuild trust, TRUST THEM to vouch f…

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Let's Begin | Advocacy, TBI, Chronic Pain & PTSD 10:54

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Send us a text The first step was reaching out to individuals who can "contain" their part & while that's going on, when thoughts come up, just share the step-by-step or systematic way of WHAT TO DO & WHAT TO SAY since I'm living in-the-moment. I accept that is HOW I LIVE. Why working with kids with special needs---always focused on them & believed…