Best Csa Survivor Podcasts (2025)

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She Silenced Whistleblowers of Abusive Evangelical Academy, Then Became One (Why She Flipped) 1:25:00

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Featured in the Shiny Happy People 2 doc-series, Cindy was deep in evangelical nationalism when she was hired as head of PR to silence whistleblowers from the Honor Academy at Teen Mania. She was told they were simply disgruntled chiIdren who were lying to defame the massive enterprise. Years later, she would realize, not only were the alumni telli…

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Why Fanatical Worldwide MINISTRIES Was Terrified of Silenced Alumni Speaking Out 1:19:22

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Mica Ringo was heavily invested in Teen Mania and went through the whole program completely ignoring xyr inner voice of authenticity. Being yourself was never an option in a group that specifically molds teens to be extremist warriors for Jesus. The program was grueling and even abusive in an attempt to break down the character of teens coming in. …

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5 Women from 5 AMISH Settlements Compare Notes 2:12:59

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TIMESTAMPS UNAVAILABLE FOR THIS EPISODE Celebrating 250 episodes with these 5 incredible women! We explore ways in which different Amish and sometimes Mennonite settlements had the same methods of control and even ab*se. We cover their rules, restrictions, medical allowances (or lack thereof), why CSA is rampant and how the perpetr*tors are often p…

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Why Teens are Being Weaponized & Trained for “End Times” Martyrdom (ft. April Ajoy) 47:09

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Following up our initial interview with the incredible April Ajoy, we go LIVE with her to further discuss her upbringing as a Christian Nation*list, in which they drilled into teens a persecution complex that would put their life on the line as a declared “believer”. Fresh off the heels of “Shiny Happy People: Teenage Holy War”, April is a successf…

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Mormon Church Loses Appeal After Failure to Report CSA (abuse continued 4 years) ft. Kolby Reddish 44:45

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Last month the church of Jesus Christ of Latter Day Saints lost an appeal to remain blameless in the case of two bishops not reporting egregious acts of CSA in the state of Arizona. Today we go in depth with former guest and current lawyer Kolby Reddish to further discuss the case and potential legal outcome. Click here to watch on YouTube Check ou…

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Taken Back to “The Family” Cult Commune After Mass Police Raid 1:43:00

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After escaping the COG cult in Australia with her husband, Maria Esguerra spent years in higher education so she could become a psychologist and better understand her past. Her mission now is to help other survivors of high control groups and people, move through their trauma and find healing in understanding. She is even doing her best to help leg…

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Why Daughter of Famous Evangelist Pastor Speaks Out AGAINST Her Childhood Teachings 1:27:51

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Fresh off the heels of “Shiny Happy People: Teenage Holy War” we sit with April Ajoy. She wouldn’t have called herself a Christian Nation*list when she performed her original song “America Say Jesus” on the Jim Bakker show, or when she participated in Jesus Marches across America. April just considered herself a good Christian: faithful, and determ…

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Shiny Happy People 2: Re-living Teenage Torture at Honor Academy 1:16:27

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Featured in the new and second season of Shiny Happy People, Dani was determined to live a life dedicated to Jesus as a young teen. She attended Acquire the Fire events in her early years which eventually led her to officially joining the Teen Mania Honor Academy program. She spent years paying thousands to work for free to travel on a bus and put …

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Why Strictly Devout IFB Homeschooler Was Forced to Question God (ft. Genetically Modified Skeptic) 1:28:47

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Isolated within a world of a strict Independent Fundamental Baptist, Drew McCoy was more than invested in his beliefs. He would proselytize to anyone who needed God, even if it meant sacrificing his social status amongst non-believers. The closest he came to breaking the rules as a teen was hanging out with non-church friends who would smoke we*d i…

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Daughters Confront Past with Former Polygamist Mother 1:28:11

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The Lebaron group fled the US after being excommunicated from the Mormon church for still practicing polygamy. While in Mexico, the group split and the Ervilite side started implementing blood atonement in an attempt to wipe out the other. Pamela Jones grew up in fear that the Ervilites would come for them any moment. To escape the extreme abuse, s…

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I Worked for a Predatory Vampyre Cult Leader in NYC 1:43:38

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Predatory Vampyre Cult Leader Exploits Vulnerable High Priestess on Altar 50:26

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In the Vampyre community that Father Sebastiaan was the head of, it was sometimes the case that the group rituals and spiritual practices were manipulated into something far more insidious. Khassa and Ashra describe what happened at the group ceremony called Babylon. They were each told something different by Father Sebastiaan about the intention o…

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Groomed & Preyed on by Infamous Vampyre Cult Leader ft. Ashra 1:11:32

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Ashra was looking for a sense of community and understanding when she came into contact with Father Sebastiaan, the most public face of the Vampyre community. Eager to learn from him, she entered into a mentor/mentee relationship. Things would eventually devolve into conversations about sex magick and rituals that he wanted her to be a part of. She…

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High Priestess Exposes Insidious Vampyre Cult Leader ft. Khassa 1:09:15

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Growing up, Khassa’ Kaikesi's mother felt plagued by her abilities as a medium. Even though Khassa came from a long line of Magickal practitioners, when she started understanding her own gifts, she was left with no support and felt isolated. She was bullied for her practices and attended 4 different high schools because of it. Once introduced to Va…

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Escaping Mexico's LeBaron Cult: Not Allowed to Read or Write to Multi Millionaire 1:34:20

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After 34 years of being abandoned, neglected, and brainwashed, Pamela Jones and her nine children escaped a fundamentalist cult out of Mexico and fled to a new life in the US. She had 2 cars and nothing more than $5 and two credit cards which she didn’t know how to use. Her biggest challenge was acclimating to a life of leadership and tasks she was…

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Lebaron Polygamist Cult: How She Became a 15 yr Old Plural Wife in Mexico (Living in a Sheep Pen) 1:30:46

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Pamela Jones was born in Los Molinos, Mexico to members of the Church of the Firstborn of the Fullness of Times, a fundamentalist, misogynistic cult. She was the 11th of her abusIve father’s 57 biological children and 2nd of her mother’s thirteen children and it was from that moment on that Pamela held one single belief: She existed for one reason …

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TwinRay Cult: Secretly Dosing Devout Followers to Sell Them Expensive Magic Merch 1:31:42

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Demetria is a survivor of an Oregon New Age group called TwinRay. She describes her journey into spirituality after reading Eckhart Tolle's works and being drawn to an online guru who claimed to have achieved spiritual liberation and later claimed he wasn’t even human. He introduced a woman (a former actress) to the leadership and claimed they were…

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OneTaste Org*sm Cult: He Stole My Virginity with Intention to Impregnate and Entrap Me 1:14:49

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Feeling worthless as a young single adult in the Mormon church, Katie was sucked into a relationship with a “worthy priesthood holder” from her ward. Once he discovered her SA, a trauma that others were blaming and shaming her for, he claimed he could cure her using OneTaste’s Orgasmic Meditation. Vulnerable and left in the dark with all things sex…

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How a “Tainted” Molly Mormon Was TARGETED for the OneTaste Orgasm Cult 1:00:58

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Born and raised in a Mormon majority town, Katie was doing her best to be the most righteous and worthy Mormon she could be. Everything came crashing down when she was blamed by her mother and shamed by her bishop for being SA’d. They claimed her “purity was tainted” and she needed to repent. Upon graduation, she went to the Young Single Adults war…

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THE ORDER Incestuous Cult: Devastating Effects of ZERO Sex Ed for Women (ft. Amanda Rae Grant) 1:00:08

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Amanda Rae joins us to talk about the ways in which her former polygamous cult weaponizes ignorance and purposely withholds information about reproduction to keep women submissive to their husband. Click here to watch on YouTube Watch Pt 2 on Amanda's channel: https://www.youtube.com/live/Q_vdflUQ69Y?si=oyE3eTaPp0QMpbim Find Amanda: YouTube: @TheAm…

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How One Man Inspired 200 KKK Members To Give Up Their Robes 1:40:36

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Daryl Davis has spent decades infiltrating and befriending not only Klan members but Klan leaders, even going as far as to attend their rallies. On a quest to do nothing more than explore racism and gather information for his book, Klan-Destine Relationships, Daryl Davis eventually became the recipient of numerous robes and hoods given to him by Kl…

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My Polygamous Father Exploited Religious AUB Rules to Terrorize Us 1:21:55

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Isolated in the Apostolic United Brethren, Janae’s father went unchecked when exploiting the nature of the religious group. With 4 wives and over a dozen children, he misused his power to control them all. “Life lessons” laced in traumatic experiences would leave the girls feeling helpless, scared and vulnerable without him, even when he was the tr…

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Daughter of a Polygamous Prophet: I Didn’t Want to Be a Sister Wife 57:32

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In the Apostolic United Brethren, a break off from the mainstream Mormon (Church of Jesus Christ of Latter Day Saints), polygamy is not only expected, but a requirement to get into the highest level of heaven per the original prophet Joseph Smith. Women are also expected to “multiply and replenish the Earth”. In this 2nd part to Emily’s interview, …

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Daughter of a Polygamous Prophet: Secrets, Rage & Neglect in the AUB 55:45

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In the Apostolic United Brethren, a break off from the mainstream Mormon (Church of Jesus Christ of Latter Day Saints), polygamy is not only expected, but a requirement to get into the highest level of heaven per the original prophet Joseph Smith. Women are also expected to “multiply and replenish the Earth”. Emily’s mother (the second wife) had 11…

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Surviving Childhood in the “Wild, Wild Country” Enlightenment Cult 1:34:39

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Born in 1968, Sarito spent her formative years constantly on the move with her mother, a young hippie in search of spiritual meaning. At just nine years old, what was intended to be a brief summer trip to India took an unexpected turn. Sarito and her mother joined the ashram of Bhagwan Shree Rajneesh, transforming that fleeting visit into a seven-y…

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Growing Up Gay “In My Super Fundamentalist Christian Church” 1:14:57

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Kevin James Thornton grew up in a small Christian town in Indiana. His early life started at a Baptist church, but once he discovered a Mega Church focused on rock bands and the youth, he became enamored and doubled down on his faith. A Jesus loving, self motivated chiId then teen, he loved his fully immersive church and heavily partook in extremel…

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Ex-Mormon & Ex-Jehovah’s Witness React to LEAKED Upcoming Convention Tapes (ft. Altworldly) 1:06:25

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Many of you have gotten knocks on your door lately (us included) by the Jehovah’s Witnesses inviting you to attend their upcoming weekend long convention in July. Our friend Jake at @altworldly found a LEAKED copy of their propaganda and promised it would deliver in absurdity and disgusting takes on the “apostates” who have left the religion. Join …

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The Dark Side of Jehovah’s Witnesses: My Husband Refused to Let Me DIE Despite Blood Doctrine 1:21:17

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As a 4th generation Jehovah’s Witness, Alissa Watson followed the path laid out before her and married young at a month past 19. Against the recommendation of the doomsday cult, she had chiIdren. During the birth of her first chiId, a pool of lost blood scared her husband into looking into the doctrine of blood transfusions being a punishable sin. …

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How THIS Jehovah’s Witnesses Leader Aligned with Hitler in WWII ft. Owen Morgan Telltale 1:15:26

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During WWII the horrific extermination of religious and ethnic groups forced people to denounce their faith and hail Hitler for their own survival. Owen Morgan, former JW and successful YouTuber @OwenMorganTelltale dove into the rabbit hole to extensively research the position and stories of the JW people at the time. He explains how Joseph Frankli…

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The Jehovah’s Witnesses Stole My Family (ft. Stop the Shunning) 1:01:00

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Bethany was raised in the Jehovah’s Witnesses, only to realize she had been part of a cult for thirty years. The psychological pressure cooker exploded in her 20s with quickly deteriorating mental health. The faux perfectionism drove her into an eating disorder as a means to gain any form of control over her life. When she could no longer pretend a…

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How Jehovah’s Witnesses Psychologically Tortured Me for 30 Years 1:25:58

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Bethany Leger was raised in the Jehovah’s Witnesses, only to realize she had been part of a cult for thirty years. The psychological pressure cooker exploded in her 20s with quickly deteriorating mental health. The faux perfectionism drove her into an eating d*sorder as a means to gain any form of control over her life. When she could no longer pre…

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Confronting Our Mormon Polygamous Cult Compound 25 Years Later 1:03:31

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Melanie and Cory grew up in the Apostolic United Brethren (AUB) at the Montana compound. They wouldn’t meet, however, until long after leaving the cult and all their family behind. Almost a polygamous wife, Melanie had a horrible arranged marriage at a young age and did whatever it took to get out and become free. Now, we look at what happens when …

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My Father is the Polygamist Prophet of the AUB Mormon Sect 1:33:10

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One of the polygamous offshoots of the Church of Jesus Christ of Latter Day Saints is the Apostolic United Brethren (AUB) where the famous Kody Brown and Sister Wives come from. Melanie grew up in this group with 4 mothers and 34 and counting siblings. Her Father was an apostle when she was growing up, but would go on to become the prophet. A posit…

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Why I Fell For America’s Most VioIent Hate Movement at 16 1:02:20

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Shannon Foley Martinez was a vict*m of CSA at age 14. Never quite able to meet her parent's expectations, Martinez sought out other angry teens. By 16 she was a sk*nhead spouting white supremac*st rhetoric, giving stiff-armed N*zi salutes and tagging public property with swast*kas. Fortified by the love of an adopted family, Martinez left the sk*nh…

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Confronting My Dangerous White Power Ideology for My ChiIdren 1:03:13

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Shannon Foley Martinez was a victim of CSA at age 14. Never quite able to meet her parent's expectations, Martinez sought out other angry teens. By 16 she was a skinhead spouting white supremacist rhetoric, giving stiff-armed Nazi salutes and tagging public property with swastikas. Fortified by the love of an adopted family, Martinez left the skinh…

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Recruited and Groomed into America’s First White Power Group at 16 1:14:51

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Christian Picciolini found himself stumbling through high school, struggling to find a community among other fans of punk rock music. There, he was recruited by a notorious white power sk*nhead leader and encouraged to fight with the movement to "protect the white race from extinction." Soon, he had become an expert in rac*st philosophies, a terror…

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Why I Regret Raising My Kids Mormon (HONEST mother/daughter discussion) 1:26:49

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A Happy Mother’s Day to everyone tuning in! This is an honest conversation between a mother and daughter about the crippling expectations placed on mothers in high control groups. Lisa explains her experience growing up in Mormonism which shaped her view of her options after high school and directly led her to becoming a young mother leaving her dr…

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I Was Sold to a Cruel American Romani Family (and then a Sadistic Husband) 1:28:21

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From a desperate mother in poverty to an American Romani family, Amanda had no trace of who she was. All of her documents were either destroyed or hidden and any trace of her biological mother was gone. Her life was a paradox of luxury coupled with ab*se and isolation. Kept out of school and othered for being adopted, she felt completely alone. Ama…

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Escaping My Authoritarian Romani Family Cult While Pregnant 1:03:23

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In our previous interview, Gina exposed many ways in which she was trained from birth to scam as a fortune teller. Some of the schemes her family ran on unsuspecting or vulnerable people garnered over $100k. Gina explained how the American Romani family she was a part of, was not living up to the beautiful culture of her persecuted people, but were…

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FORCED to Scam as a Romani Fortune Teller 1:20:38

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Gina Merino grew up in California with a very strict family which identifies as “Gypsies”. Her life was strictly controlled and she experienced harsh ab*se at the hands of her step mother. At elementary age, before being pulled out of school, she would begin telling fortune, understanding she was lying to people, but had no other choice. She uncove…

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Dark Secrets of Romani Fortune Telling 1:10:02

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Born a Romani girl in the US, in a very insulated group, Paulina Stevens had her future laid out for her. She was set in an arranged marriage to her cousin at 14 years old and after her dowry was paid, her new family claimed they “owned her”. Things got dark and possessive very quickly and no one would help her. After having chiIdren and realizing …

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The Cover-Up and Abuse at Bible Baptist Church ft. (Preacher Boys) 56:43

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Today we are joined LIVE by former Independent Fundamental Baptist Eric, of the show @preacherboys, to discuss the Bible Baptist Church. It has a decades-long history of hiring, supporting, and protecting individuals credibly accused or convicted of sexual abuse and other serious crimes, especially against children. The church’s leadership, particu…

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“The Mothers” Separated Me From My Parents at 4 Yrs Old (Being Loved a Sin) 1:18:45

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CW: CA, ED. What happens when religion and power collide in the wrong hands? At Grenville Christian College, once one of Canada’s most prestigious private religious schools, the result was thousands of broken lives. Once ranked amongst Canada’s elite boarding schools, the impressive facade hid a far darker truth. Just three years after its opening,…

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My Mother Sent Me to Get Conversion Therapy (Escaping the IBLP Cult) ft. @MatthewandPaulOfficial 1:08:42

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The Institute in Basic Life Principles, run by the predatory Bill Gothard, would turn thousands of families into their own isolated cults. Matthew Castle was trapped in his own family until his mid twenties. Shielded from the outside world and musically stifled, his talent on the violin was so impressive, multiple colleges including Juilliard tried…

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Pregnant at 15: My Strict Mormon Mother Forced Me to Repent 1:33:31

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Louise Roberts grew up in a strict LDS (Mormon) household where the messages of apostles’ quotes would echo throughout. One of them being “if you are ever in a position to be r*ped, ask to be k*lled.” Her mother was not aware that she had already been h*rmed as a chiId. This led to feelings of worthlessness and shame which had her seeking love and …

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The Darkside of Ex-Mormon Content Creating ft. ExmoLex 1:10:25

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After 25 years of being a devout Mormon, when Lexi started questioning her faith, she had no support other than the online content made by ex-Mormon creators. When her father saw that she responded to and agreed with an ex-Mormon social media post, he snapped at her to keep her mouth shut about her opinions. This was the moment that fueled her to s…

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Mormon Bishop Exploits Teen Girl for Years With “Worthiness Interviews” 1:18:06

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In a church that requires confessions from ages as early as 8, to an untrained, inexperienced, randomly appointed man, it leaves a lot of room for a potential ab*se situation. In Taylor’s case, she developed scrupulously (religious OCD) and felt compelled to repent of every single thing that would be seen as a sin by the LDS church. Her bishop furt…

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The Handmaid’s Tale is Real (Ex Polygamist Cult Members React) ft. Growing Up in Polygamy 1:10:58

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Join us with the amazing husband and wife team, Sam and Melissa from @GrowingUpinPolygamy as they blind react to plot points of the Handmaid’s Tale and tell us all the ways some of these exact things were and ARE still happening in the Fundamentalist Church of Jesus Christ of Latter Day Saints. Click here to watch on YouTube YouTube: @GrowingUpinPo…

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FLDS & IBLP explained by "Growing Up in Polygamy" 1:19:41

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Learn about the shocking similarities between the “Shiny Happy People” documentary cult which is the Institute in Basic Life Principles and the FLDS (Fundamentalist Church of Jesus Christ of Latter Day Saints)! Joining the conversation is husband and wife team Sam and Melissa from Growing Up in Polygamy. Click here to watch on YouTube YouTube: @Gro…

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Swartzentruber AMISH: Seeking JUSTICE Against the Strictest Settlement 1:10:15

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An expert witness for Amish and Mennonite court cases, Lizzie explains the rules of her intense settlement before taking us through her unbelievable story of disaster, lethal betrayal, tragedy, abandonment and perseverance. She even gives us a glimpse of the strange dating practice which takes place in the woman’s bedroom. Decades later she seeks j…