We have taken a small summer break following our last episode and for good reason. The days have been hot and sadly, Rob's father passed away during the month of July. Today, he has decided to open up and discuss his feelings and address the grief. As we delve into our collected 'summer mourning' we find time to talk of ghosts, relationships and ou…

In this episode, I discuss the dichotomies of bravery/cowardice and truth/lies. I draw on parallels between today and in my childhood when I had to stand up to a bully in a moment of fear and trembling. As for the modern world, we are seeing a true pandemic of accepted lies, where truth is scoffed at and blanketed over by false flags and other dist…

This is my 21st episode to help cast off 2021. I feel it is fitting to look back on the years behind me, my healing and overcoming of ulcerative colitis and regard my journey through the lens of community, my closeness and distance to it. In this episode I discuss the sense of camaraderie I encountered in the company of classmates, co-workers and c…

In this episode, I offer a mix of 'meat and potatoes' (namely facts) with some autobiographical moments and vignettes from May 2002. Before my diagnosis, I had to depend upon myself and learn a little about the digestive tract. While trying to pinpoint the core of my suffering, playing Sherlock Holmes with my own body, I encounter numerous, hopeles…

Dolli and I have been doing a podcast together for some time, and I thought I would share one of our episodes on my podcast, From the Jaws of the Lion. In this episode, we discuss truth, the difficulties of expressing it, the fears, the concerns, the qualms and in some instances, the healing aspects. I have decided to share this episode because I d…

In this episode, I turn to my adolescent past to investigate my early amores while also examining the influence of a certain girl. Lena captured my heart in a time I was on the cusp of branching out, gaining confidence with myself. Our flirtations were seemingly innocent and playful, only for her to steadily cause me frustration and eventually, her…

Recovering from Jolanta, I find both my body and psyche still need to mend. It's a bit rocky for me and with school not working out, thankfully, I gain employment at a beer and wine store near the university. Now and then, I still visit the campus to get a hair cut, and have chats with my hairdresser, Amy. I also begin to make connections at my new…

In this episode, I am reflecting on my experience with being a friend and at the same time, being attracted to a conflicted female, Jolanta. Shortly after meeting her in a bartending course, I feel attracted, repulsed, angered and enamored by her presence. My fellow classmate, Dan, warns me I'm in for some trouble, yet I have to see it through. Jol…

October 2003. The end of the year is winding down along with my stubborn journey. Despite my last ditch efforts to heal with a strange woman and her weird, unconventional if not 'sickly' methods on the outskirts of Victoria, I have to concede and seek out proper medical intervention. Dr. Harman is pleased, my mother and step-father, too; meanwhile …

Following my healing session with Cameron and the insights gained from Glen (events discussed in the previous episode, Paternal Surrogates for the Prodigal Son), the struggle to gain ground in my life meets a momentary curveball. I am hit with the news that I am fired from my part-time position. Thankfully, my job search is temporary; I find work i…

Returning to the story of my healing journey, I find myself in Victoria, British Columbia. It is February 2004 and in a bid to gain perspective, and emotional autonomy, I decide to temporarily cut ties with my father despite his financial support. It is a difficult decision, though his absence opens a gap whereby I begin to invite paternal figures …

In this episode, after a break of some time, I discuss meeting a new friend, Martin. Martin has had a rough year, recently diagnosed with gastritis. With him, I explore meditation work, forgiveness and re-scripting the past in order to heal the present and future. One thing stands out is Martin's need to be the father-figure in friendships. I can r…

Far from home, from the life I led in Niagara, I find myself starting anew. But alone, lonely, and going through moments of depression in the big city, I find myself making tenable attempts at connection and turning my situation around. Still, despite all my efforts, my heart is failing me and somehow, I'm failing my heart. It appears things are go…

In this episode, I explore what happened in the wake of my medicinal metempsychosis. While I have regained a sizeable portion of body weight in a short time, I am unable to gain the respect and support of my brother and father. Feeling alone, I dedicate myself to leaving Ontario for British Columbia, but the troubles I leave behind become the troub…

In this episode I bring the listeners into the world of my medicinal metempsychosis session, introducing them to Diana, the regression therapist who would prove to have a pivotal role in helping me regain a foothold in my healing from ulcerative colitis.By Christijan Robert

In this episode I discuss my early experience with metempsychosis, better known in the west as reincarnation. While it is a subject that draws disbelief and sometimes, harsh judgement, I offer up perspectives on my belief while examining a session from my teens where my mother's friend helps regress me to a medieval life. The results are fascinatin…

In this episode, I reflect on all the rooms I resided in leading up to 2002, as well as examine my depression and despairing attitudes regarding life before the onset of the colitis. In addition, I take a look back at two previous relationships, focusing on two women who were artistically inclined and yet emotionally couldn't have been more differe…

Despite the information I glean during the Echo session, and my Reiki practitioner's wise words to defend my health, I bow to unspoken pressure from my brother and father, compromising my body's integrity and nearly causing a fatal reaction. With help from a mysterious source, I continue on my path, leading to reconciliation with my brother and a c…

In this episode, I describe the horrid aftermath of taking medication I had intuitively felt was working against me. In order to feel better at foregoing the prescription, I seek out my doctor and become grimly reminded of how little help and support I have. But slowly, surely, I rally myself and seek out answers from an unconventional source.…

This is the first part in a series detailing how I survived in the aftermath of discharging myself from McMaster Hospital in late March 2003. Against doctor's orders, I set out on my own to heal and repair myself from the shocks and trauma of my two weeks in the hospital. It was a time of risks, of threats from within, as well as a time I had to de…

In this episode, I reflect upon the souls I met while at McMaster University Hospital in March 2003. I highlight the tender moments, the moments of bonding and unity as well as conflict amongst fellow patients and staff and how happiness, as Leo Tolstoy wrote in his novel, The Cossacks, truly belongs in the company of others, whatever the circumsta…

In this episode I discuss the impact of discovering the abdominal brain, a concept further elaborated upon in Traditional Chinese Medicine. I also detail certain encounters and conversations with nursing staff and other patients at McMaster and learn that I share something in common with a fellow sufferer of a similar irritable bowel disease. Join …

In this episode, I discuss my first ghastly encounter with a specialist on my healing journey.By Christijan Robert

This podcast episode marks the first for me. My name is Robert, and I was a former sufferer of Ulcerative Colitis. In 'The Life Before Him' I introduce myself, my background, giving an overview of my life before I became seriously ill. Being an introductory episode, I hint at episodes to come, where I further detail how I managed to overcome such a…